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Okay first off, I think you need a hug. Okay maybe a few more... Okay, now you need to decide what you really want to do. You're old enough that if you feel like you really need to get out of this house and start your own life, you can do that. But if you feel like you have to stay, then sit down with your parents and talk to them. And be really serious about it. You shouldn't have to put up with this because you are old enough to have more respect from them then how they're treating you!!

AND TELL YOUR BROTHER TO LEAVE YOU ALONE AND STOP READING WHAT I"VE WRITTEN!!!!! :o

Now, I hope things do work out with you and your family. I don't think you acutally want to leave them and as for your past, have you prayed for forgiveness? Because if you have, God doesn't remember those sins of yours and I hope some how you're able to get out of this mess!

Keep praying...and I will pray for you tonite! God bless. Love, Tanya

hehe....wow.

well, i guess now you realise what it means to be like Jesus.
isnt fun is it? haha. sorry i dont mean to laugh...but thats what its all about. and taking it all... without thinking you deserved anymore... this is just all in the days work.

i dont mean to be hard on you, if youll allow me to say such things....
but... i think your a man of God enough to recieve it all. i know you say you are anyway....if you were a babe in Christ it would be diffrent... but your in the fox hole with me and this is war and you gotta have my back.

what your going through really isnt much, and you just have to commit to serve the Lord anyway, which means have the right heart toward your family, your not alone, this is a place where plenty of brothers and sisters in Christ are and have been. you just have to humble yourself, pray and stay in the word, and live it. Jesus promised us that in the last days WE SHALL HAVE TRIBULATION....thats just as much a promise as any blessing or assurance he ever gave us.

you shouldnt need a thanks or a praise or appreciation, you didnt do it to be seen and praised did you? if you did, then it was about you, and not people.

and have compassion on those members of your family that are wrong, they dont understand what there doing to you. and you are saved, not them, the healer doesnt come to those who are well, but those who are sick, you are no longer Gods first priority in your family, they are. theyre the ones that are sick. now your just the servant. theyre the ones who need to be waited on and cared for and made to feel good.

i remember the words of God in amos he said only his "servants" would ever know his secret places and secret ways... only those who served him as servants, humble servants.

i remember bill wilson... the man left everything to go move to new york and live in the bronx, probly the worst part of newyork city. not because it felt good or becuase he would ever be thanked or appreciated, but because he loved a broken people who needed help, even if they hated him.
the mans been shot, been hit in the head with bricks, got shot in the head last i heard... but he loves his people, and those are his people. and he will die there, serving his people. he has lived a life of poverty and hardship... becuase someone has too. and we say BUT NO, I BELEIVE IN PROSPERITY! IT AINT GOTTA BE LIKE THAT! but what if God did tell you to go live in the desert like he DID tell john the baptist... would you serve him? if not... you arent a true servant of the Lord.

man that doesnt feel good.... but its what being a true man of God without pride or desiring to babied or pampered really is.
i mean, only babies and small children, cry everytime they dont get there way. my father, man he does some unpleasant things... but thats life.

we have to submit... and it isnt true submission untill we dont agree.
.... .... but thats what its all about...
i dont think wed like to hang around with Jesus, becuase the way of life he lived, would make us look like little crying babies that have to be pampered and cooed too.
it isnt wrong to be immature... just dont stay there.

well.... praise God anyway.
Godbless you, i know you are a woman of God.
go be a true servant of the Lord.
Lee.

give up your life, take up your cross and deny yourself...or you cannot be a disciple of Christ.
just becuase we have someone bugging us, and being nosey, and dont appreciate us... thats nothing compared to what people who are serving the Lord and changing earth go through nearly everyday. if you cant handle this little bit, youll never get any higher.

let the Lord be your refuge. As endure said, the war is not over. But this war doesn't involve spiteful and angry retortion. yes, you feel like doing that, but be like Jesus.
It's a step by step, day to day battle taht requires constant refreshment and encouragement through the Word of God.

praying for you.

This is the part where i'm supposed to go 'here's a bible verse. now live with it.' but it's not going to help.

I agree you need some hugs aside from the fact that i am a dude you will have to brush off the lie that it could be a homosexual act when it isn't.

ANYHOO! Mate i seriously cannot even imagine what it's like. I admit i had similar problems but are no where near what you describe.

BUT there is one problem i see. Why are you ashamed of praying? Why don't you want them to see you post here? Why do you shy off when you're talking to God and they find out? I'm talking about the christian stuff that you (from my point of view) don't want them to know.

Maybe instead of getting interrupted try to continue praying. Or better yet, let them see it. Maybe i didn't read your post right but that's the impression i got. Give it a go mate.

I mean what can you lose? You pray, they see and you get ridiculed. You don't pray, they see you and you get ridiculed.


As for the privacy part, maybe ask them nicely. Chances are high that doesn't work (never did for me ). Otherwise you're going to have to set some rules. They should respect your privacy. But i can't think of anyway for you to do it without getting angry or cause them to resent you.

I'll be back with something later.

well man, you dont really deserve more. not really. becuase all you are and will be is only by grace, and you really arent anything.

you said

What really bothers me is that I never really had my own life. It has always been spent for another.

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well thats what being a true man of God is all about, thats the way it will always be man. and if you are a servant, it shouldnt be a problem brother.
thats what it really means...to take up your cross and follow him. it should be a blessing to know you were counted worthy of the cause of Christ.

well Godbless you.
Lee.

Don't worry about it Looksgood, what you are feeling is absolutely natural. Lay off a bit endure, all human beings go through stressful times and we AREN'T Jesus, even if we try to be. If he were saying he deserved a million dollars and perfect life, then I would be telling him to pare it back a few notches, but there's nothing wrong with desiring the opportunity to be free from the burden of taking care of your whole family and wanting to be able to find a wife/husband and start a family of your own.

I believe the Lord gives us all our own burdens for a reason LG, and I'm sure the experience you've reaped through taking care of your family and your brother will serve you greatly in the future, and perhaps make you a much better husband and/or father than you would have been otherwise. I pray that the Lord gives you the strength to be patient.

well thats great man.
im not trying to attack you or anything, thats just what its all about.

Glad to hear you feel better.
keep ya head up.
Godbless you.