Virious

Well I talk to myself mostly lol.. Like this:
When we are born into this world a plan has already been formulated for us. The very moment we become self-aware and can remember things, our training begins. It begins with random teachers your parents. You will learn through their teachings and their beliefs and their way of life. But God is watching over you. Things won’t make sense in your head so you will start looking for the answers yourself because their ways just don’t make sense. The explanations you are given just don’t make sense, so YOU must make sense of it by learning for yourself because you are not abnormal or don’t fit in. It’s them and you just don’t know it yet. We are like newborn puppies and some are removed from their mother, but we learn from our new environment. And you are not alone. Others are learning from their environment as well and some are just happy biting the mailman and some chase cars. Sometime people are in the same environment like, a job. You go to a new job and try to fit in so you can learn their ways. If the answer isn’t found, then you need more training. More learning and experiences in life. But along the way you are answering your own questions for yourself. People will try to confuse you because they have already made a conclusion to their life. I have not yet. I’m still learning, and I see the light and I’m going towards it. My family looks happier and they talk to me more and I talk to them more. Some experiences that you will receive in life will be negative. You can’t avoid it. But Joey you must witness this in order to understand the feelings that everyone deals with. Some love certain feelings and have adjusted to them to make sense of their life and they are happy the way they are. Others are not happy because they haven’t had the right experiences yet to make sense of their world. Some people by chance have certain experiences and lessons earlier or later in life it just depends on your environment. If you grew up in Church, you are ahead of the game. If you did not then you will have to learn in a very difficult and unique way and in this way the reward has a much greater impact on you but the road will be hard and you will battle in confusion with very little help. I began life or became self-aware as a poor confused soul. A poor town on a lonely road. My parents parted ways and my Grandfather had just passed away and I watched the ambulance from across the creek and my Grandmas house. I was sitting with my Cousin Candi on a septic tank. That’s when life began for me as I moved around from home to home and crossed paths with unique people and new to me. Somehow along the way I started getting tired and looking for conveniences to make life easier and watching other and did what they did. I never talked much because people would find out that I’m just a poor kid from a back-country road. I just watched and learned for a very long time only doing what I knew to do for myself and my family. Still never talking or writing my thoughts. I’m to a point now that I can see the right way to be and it feels really good and I want to share it with everyone else. God is the way; you don’t have to figure things out anymore Joey. It is already laid out for you and you now have just the right amount of experiences and lessons in your life to see the message in the bible. I still have to process this for about one week. Or pray on this.

Give a man a fish and he will eat it. Some want you to keep giving them fish and they learn that way. Some will eat it but not trust you and try to figure out where you got the fish so he can get it himself. He might get it or get lost because he is too stubborn or confused.