SmallNation

I've was diagnosed with high functioning autism. I've been through one job after another that has not worked, and I recently got fired from Walmart. I'm now on disability, as they diagnosed me as schizo-affective as well. I spend a great deal of time in prayer and making friends with interesting people who are very devoted to scripture. I am particularly interested in the Hebrew understanding of the world, the names of all the nations, and endtimes eschatology. Most people I meet are my enemies, and are very insufferable. But Jesus told us to bless our enemies. My life is full of adversity and people who need to be prayed for. Because of my enemies, God's strength has been made manifest in my life. I used to be conservative politically until I worked at Walmart. Then I started to realize how bad things really are for so many people, and I am a strong champion of democracy, of bringing universal healthcare for all Americans, bringing true equality for women, standing against racism, stopping the gangstalking of people in society such as homosexual men and single women, and fixing the middle class that is being destroyed. I find a good majority of people I come across to not be very smart when it comes to understanding politics, and tending to be very illogical. I find that many people do not understand that because of their political beliefs that "feel" right to them, many people are being oppressed and their lives are made very difficult... some are even killed. I do not like to say this, it is difficult to say this... but I sense a good majority of Christians I come across very easily fit into the category of "stupid" and I find myself wanting to punch things after talking them to a few minutes. They do not understand the reality of what they believe, and how people are actually being hurt very badly by their belligerence... I often feel like I am talking to drunks. Sometimes I am tempted to go on the internet and start saying very mean things to them that make me sound like a total bastard or an a**hole... but I am reminded that his is not good for the body of Christ. But I am just telling you the truth about myself, regardless of whether you want to judge me for it. Conservative Christians I come across seem to want to judge others and not look at themselves, and they have to be right and argue and split hairs about things... and they have no clue how illogical they sound. I would like to make friends with people and be positive, but there is a very real and evil presence that causes people's flesh to turn against me in most cases, even from Christians. But this reminds me of how much more powerful our Lord is. The Lord has put me on this earth apparently to make people angry. And to get in the way of many things. Thanks for reading.