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Recent content by Renwolf

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    Selfish

    Those are some pretty stong suicidal urges, there. Please talk to someone about this. And please please remember that dying won't just make the hurting stop, it'll make everything stop. You'll lose your opportunity to experience all of the wonderful things about life. I know it's hard to...
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    setback

    Hey, welcome :) I'm sorry about your relapse. Good for you in getting it out in the open, though. I find that the more people who know I'm struggling, the easier it is for me to stay safe. What other steps are you taking to make sure you stay safe? Keeping you in my thoughts and...
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    The first time in 2 yrs

    Staying safe for 2 years while still having the urge to self injure is a huge accomplishment, whether you realize it right now or not. A relapse isn't a failure, it's a chance to learn more about yourself. Push aside the disappointment for a minute and try to think about why you relapsed...
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    Arrrr!!!!!

    CONGRATS on not cutting, especially with all of those emotional triggers. You're not insane and you're not stupid. And you're definitely not alone. (((hugs))) if you want them. Picture yourself wrapped in that blanket, safe and warm. Take a deep breath and try to relax. It's ok to cry...
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    Selfish

    I think it's great that you are reaching out to your friends for support and I think it's even more great that your friends are willing to be there for you when you need them. It's not selfish at all to lean on your friends a bit when you don't feel well. You said it yourself, you'd do the...
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    How long since you last self injured?

    Congrats on your month! Awesome accomplishment. :) Ths evening will be 20 days for me. Lots of anxiety, panic and other triggers, but I'm staying strong and hanging in there. Lots of strength and best wishes for everyone else fighting back the urges.
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    So confused.... :(

    Hello, I'm sorry you're struggling with this so much. If your current therapist isn't helping, can you get another one? Preferable one that understands that you can't just "stop cutting", at least not until you have a good support system and some better coping mechanisms in place. A good...
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    wish ithers could see

    Hey, congrats on your 3 years. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but that's a huge accomplishment. My thoughts, feel free to take or leave: Don't give up the Bible study. Don't worry about understanding what they're trying to teach. Just be there. The connection to God will come...
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    bad choices

    I'm sorry you've been having a rough time. Keeping it to yourself hurts you, and I can't imagine your husband would want that. Even though it'll be hard for him to hear, he probably would rather know so that he can try to help. That might be a way for you to start breaking the cycle that...
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    Counseling!

    Hiya Ebony, Congrats on telling someone! It takes a lot of courage to take such a big step like that. It was the right decision to make, even if it doesn't seem like it right now. I think everyone believes at one point or another that they can stop self injuring on their own. The reality...
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    How many have suffered sexual abuse of some kind?

    I've never been sexually abused, or abused in any way, thank God. My self injury has always been due to a lack of proper coping skills, inability to deal with strong emotions, and a good dose of intense self loathing. My heart goes out to everyone struggling with issues of abuse. You are...
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    Do I have a CHOICE?

    I believe that in most cases, cutting is a choice. I also think it's an addiction and a psychological disorder or perhaps a symptom of a psychological disorder, but ultimately, there's a choice involved. That's not to trivialize it and say "well, if you choose to do it, you can choose to...
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    Back to day one

    You don't have to do this on your own. It might be that your friends and sponsors and even your youth pastor are afraid of making you feel worse, and that's why they've stopped asking if you're ok. Is there any way you can talk them and get them to agree to check up on you every so often...
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    rough night but still safe

    Thanks so much for the support. I really appreciate it :)
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    Question about getting 'help'

    Check out this website ( http://www.brainplace.com/bp/atlas/ch7.php ). Actual brain scans of people with depression compared to brain scans of a people without depression. Whether it's brain chemicals or something else, there's pretty good evidence that the brain of a person with depression...