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Recent content by Nendem

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    Am I Apostate?

    I have severe anxiety that spirals out of control from time to time..and now its favorite playground is in my mind telling me I sinned too much, making my heart too calloused to genuinely repent, and that I’m just waiting on the bus to Hell...I’ve wracked my brain, tried to reason and figure out...
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    Am I Apostate?

    what do you mean?
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    Am I Apostate?

    I know salvation isn't based on a feeling, but in examining myself, I don't know if I was ever actually saved, or merely believed on an intellectual message in the Bible, and emotionally had an affinity for what I thought was God, but somehow never actually accepted Jesus. I don't know...
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    Am I Apostate?

    I feel, and maybe it's just my anxiety, in that realizing my error and trying to repent, that I am indeed crucifying Jesus afresh..I hate it and feel terrible about it, like I completely forgot my first love or something, I just got indifferent and stepped away for a few years, and now in coming...
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    Am I Apostate?

    Well, I didn't replace Jesus with another religion, but I kinda gave up on praying to Him. I would pray to God but not Jesus, as I felt like I wasn't sure who was listening to me...I don't remember renouncing Christianity, I thought maybe world religions were man's attempt at explaining God, but...
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    Am I Apostate?

    It isn’t that I don’t want him to be, it’s a combination of fear and guilt that makes me feel like He isn’t. I believe in the Bible and I believe in my need for Jesus, but I fear if I apostatized then I am lost forever.
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    Am I Apostate?

    I believe Jesus is the Messiah. He is the King. But in my heart of hearts, I fear he’s not my king, that I pushed him away and the Holy Spirit left me. And at other times, I feel he never was my king or else I wouldn’t have strayed like I did..that is my dilemma. I feel like an apostate, like I...
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    Am I Apostate?

    there was a time I didn’t care...I was abroad living for myself not keeping my mind on the things above. I had a wake up call that caused me to step back and ask what in the world have I been doing...it’s confusing and has been difficult but ultimately I prefer to be here dealing with things...
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    Am I Apostate?

    I certainly believe in God and want to be in communion with him again. Maybe I always have been, I don’t know for sure, but I certainly got off track for a bit and deeply wish it wouldn’t has happened...but I pray He grants me time and reconciles me back to Him.
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    Am I Apostate?

    because for true repentance, one must believe they personally are forgiven. I’m not really sure right now that Jesus is mine...sometimes I believe he is, and other times I believe I am delusional as my fruit indicates I wasn’t a believer..or at least not anymore.
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    Am I Apostate?

    I am certainly a doubting Thomas, and I don’t say that with pride. But I’m also aware my head and my heart are two different things.
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    Am I Apostate?

    I’ve done a lot of self-examination recently, and it’s been difficult to nail down for sure if I was a believer. I definitely thought I was, but in hindsight I’m not so sure. I was serious, and committed to it, but ultimately only God knows our hearts, and my doubt is if I really completely...
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    Am I Apostate?

    I guess it’s a question of when does doubt become actual disbelief? And is the consequence permanent? If I repent of that, does it matter?
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    Am I Apostate?

    Apologies if in the wrong forum. I’ve posted a similar topic before, but this is a bit different. Basically I’m worried that I was a ‘theist’ for a few months of my life, and if so, if that means I’m now apostate and can’t return to Jesus. I was in my early twenties, backslidden and not...
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    Wanting to Return

    thank you for your encouragement