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    Post here when you feel like cutting

    I want to hurt myself now. Been battling with anger and self hate. Nothing I do works off the anger. I just don't like myself. Feeling soooooo far away from the Lord it's almost unreal. What do I have to do to get help? I pray like crazy and nothing happens. Went to see my Doc yesterday and he...
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    What do you class as self harming? *Trigger Warning*

    I agree with this, Im-revived, but I also struggle with it. I mean, it's hard enough not cutting but not thinking about cutting and not thinking bad things about myself seems almost impossible for me. Once I get on the "I hate myself" track there is almost no stopping me. Okay so I don't at the...
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    Once a SIer, always a SIer?

    Thanks Soulwings. I needed the encouragement and I needed a hug! Bless you, mitiog
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    Christian Counselling

    Im-revived, The last lady I saw was Christian who had helped many member of our congregation with various issues in the past. I saw her weekly for two years. She was absolutely fantastic, even though she wasn't qualified as a counsellor or anything. I could contact her inbetween appointments if...
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    The urge*may trigger*

    Hey, hang in there, I know it's hard. Stand firm, keep going. I'm so glad you can see satan's hand in this. God is bigger, stronger and more powerful. He will get you through this tough patch. The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in...
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    Christian Counselling

    Celtic, Thanks! The counsellor I'm seeing is a Christian lady from my church who is a qualified counsellor, certified by a governing body, etc. and she's experienced in her field. She is also the only person in my area with these qualifications and expereince - even the local mental health...
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    Dependancy

    I've been thinking about this lots and I've had a further conversation with one of the medics who is endorsing the counselling. He explained that I need to take counselling issues to the counsellor, though I could have other people for support too. So the issue that I'm battling with at the...
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    need advice

    Hey that's really harsh! It takes guts to give up cutting and to have your familiy making life hard for you in the meantime must be horrible. :cry: :hug: I hope that you can find someone to talk to face to face about this. I'm sorry to hear that you're also had a bereavement. I pray that you...
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    New Member

    Hi KittyKorner! I'm mitiog and I've only been here a few weeks. So far everyone's been really supportive and friendly. We're all at different stages in our battle with SI. Well done on not cutting. It's hard. I've been there. I stopped because it was harming my realtionship with God and also I...
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    Once a SIer, always a SIer?

    Thanks for this, Im-revived. I'd never thought of that. I've assumed that I'll always have urges to cut at some point. I can go for days without even thinking about it then at other times I can be almost constantly thinking about cutting myself. It'd be nice to believe that one day the thoughts...
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    Betweem The Urge and The Act

    Me too mamalonglegs, that's how it was. All those emotions you've described are how it was for me. I got locked into a cycle of bad emotions+bad coping strategy=worse emotions (excuse the maths - I'm a mathematician so I like equations :)). I probably can't say here how the self-harm made me...
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    Christian Counselling

    Thanks pockelberry, I agree that journalling is a great way to help work through the bad feelings and emotions. When I was seeing a Christian lady from my church I used to take her diagrams that I'd drawn. They were a bit like flow-charts with different events in my life all connected up...
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    Dependancy

    Thanks for that, Im-revived. That makes more sense. Having my insides ripped out by a counsellor hurts like mad and it's good to know that I can get some encouragement and support from other places. I got some prayer at church yesterday and that helped a bit. Another counselling session...
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    Once a SIer, always a SIer?

    It's been 708 days and each day is still a battle. Sometimes I get days that are fine and I hardly even think of cutting or hurting myself. Other days it seems that supermarkets are deliberately rearranging their shelves to put razors in my path, life is dead against me and I have huge urges to...
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    Medicine

    I'm not a medical doctor and I'd always recommend that you listen to their advice but here's a few thoughts: I've been off meds for a year now. Before that I spent two years taking a wide range of anti-depressants in variying doses. I found that the side-effects I had to deal with masked the...
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