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Recent content by a7x

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    I Hate God!!!

    Same here. Oftentimes, I would rather die than having to crawl through this torment of pain and sorrow, or so-called 'life'. You are accusing God of being selfish, cruel, and unjust. That is your misconception. He is not whatever you may think He is. But, I do know where you are coming from...
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    Avenged Sevenfold

    is simply the greatest band. EVER. Words cannot fathom the greatness of A7X. Its genre is in a league of its own. It cannot surface the enormity of this musically gifted band, and heaven-forbid, there has to be a better description for the new album, 'City of Evil'. I just cannot emphasize...
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    I Hate God!!!

    I felt the same way... to an extent. Cursing God isn't gonna help you in any way. Sure, you do have the 'right' to do so, but nothing good comes out of it. It leaves you empty and cold inside, and you keep seeking for something you can't see, or feel.. I do not know what you're going...
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    i'm not going to lie.... as much as it might seem evident to most of you, i really am going under. it's almost as if i'm lying to myself, when i clearly know that i'm not okay... and it just makes things worse. i can't help it. the worst thing is that, i know what i have to do... but i just...
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    liver with some fava beans :blush:
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    I.... want to thank you for all your support. I realized... in my lucid drunken state, that I am not the owner of my life and that I do not have the right to treat it as such... as my own. I never did have enough courage to take 'my life', nor did I truly want to... in a way. If we were...
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    Why is some music "evil"?

    yes it can be evil.
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    Actually, the thing is, whenever I posted here in this thread, it was always after a suicide attempt. I've done it before many years ago and I knew I wasn't going to do it.. but to be on the edge of the blade, or a cliff, it really messes with your head. I thank EACH and EVERY one of you: you...
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    many things run through my mind, replaying my past in 8-bit timeframes, and thinking why God would ever want me in those situations and how they would come to conform me into the person He wants me to be... and right now, I have no clue, but I do have this assurance.. that I am alive because...
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    happy birthday.. and thanks.
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    What are you listening to now? V. 1 Billion (3)

    guess what i'm listening to.
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    I can't say that I'm doing better... but I feel as if I am on the way to getting better.
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    Well, today, I went to Saddleback Church, and today being father's day, they had some special on this and the entire sermon was a tribute to the 'heroes' of our time and how to manage a family. The whole time, I was on the verge of just walking out, but I sat through the whole thing. Listening...
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    Funny thing. Everytime I read a passage about hope and faith, I laugh deviously as I cry.... But, for some very odd reason, I get this sense, more so like a spiritual force, telling me to do otherwise. Rather than thinking with my 'feelings', I am inclined to put things into perpective, or...
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    I want OUT. I want to DIE.

    I want to believe, which does not mean that I don't have faith... but right now, EVERYTHING is telling me not to do otherwise. I can't do this anymore. I really meant the best and God knows.... so WHY?
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