Still not adjusted to my situation after 6 years. Feeling doomed to suffer

[Healing with Jesus]

16 years ago, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. I was a prodigal child who knew God as a very young girl. I had been chasing the world and all its sinful fruits, and suddenly found divine love and grace.

Shortly after my conversion, I met the man who would become my husband. We started with the premarital relations and I got pregnant 3 months after meeting him. And it's not like I had a bunch of lust for him - I sincerely believed that we were meant to be together, and that my getting pregnant meant that God wanted us to be married. I actually was not attracted to him very much because he constantly belittled me for my past before Christ.

He convinced me that he would be happier in a cabin in the woods 500+ miles away from our families. I fought him on moving away, but the pressure was too great. He would be shaking from stress when he drove in the traffic-filled streets. His mom was verbally abusive to me, so I moved back in with my mom. Then, my brother was verbally abusive to me, in a very inappropriate and scary way. I felt like I had nowhere to go, and escaping to a remote cabin seemed like a safe option with all the chaos and tumult in our hometown.

That was 15 years ago.

It was the worst decision I ever made.

God even warned me in a dream. He showed me the chaos I would be walking into. I still moved here, feeling like I had no other option.

The culture shock has been extremely intense. I have been misunderstood and excluded by the people here. I used to be a colorful, articulate Christian with unbridled enthusiasm for life and my walk with God.

Now, I have been beaten up by life so severely that no one recognizes me.

I had to leave my ex-husband 6 years ago. My health was breaking down because of the abuse and isolation. Sadly, though I have been recovering the best I can, I am still unhealthy. It is not for lack of trying. I eat very well and work out regularly.

I have no friends. I have no boyfriend. My kids are my only company, and I refuse to be co-dependent with them. My mom did that to me. So I keep my big problems to myself, and suffer silently.

I tried going to church. I got attacked for not being vaccinated.

I tried dating. I got hurt multiple times and needed to call the cops.

I tried getting medical care. My doctor ignored me for a week. I ended up in urgent care diagnosed with an infection. The antibiotic gave me a bad reaction, and I needed an ambulance the next day. My support system is so non-existent that I needed to pull my oldest child out of school to watch the younger kids just so I could go the emergency room.

I tried visiting my family back home. But the courts will not allow me to move there with the kids, since my ex says that he can take over the parenting duties. However, this reality only exists in his head. He doesn't even check his mail or write back to emails. He cannot manage complex medical care for disabled children.

I have been looking for a new place to live for 4 summers in a row. I have been rejected and denied because of things beyond my control, like a bankruptcy because my ex-husband financially abused me (to the tune of $50,000 in credit card debt). An eviction incorrectly filed against me, but the court will not remove it from my record.

As such, my kids and I have been forced to live in an unhealthy home that has black mold, because we cannot find another place to live. The neighborhood is geographically isolated and socially deserted. The people here are so unfriendly that they go inside whenever we go out.

And this locale that my ex moved to is quite beautiful, and it had low Covid numbers. So now the housing has been bought up by people, and there is nowhere left to live. I am looking at dingy apartments for my kids and me that cost double what I am paying now.

I am not depressed.
I am demoralized by life.

Every day (almost) I read my Bible. I need to. I need God. I have been clinging to Him for dear life.
I don't understand what He's doing in my life.
I need Him to guide me through this storm.

 

[Reluctant Theologian]

A lot of misfortune - results from bad treatment/circumstances and partially also some bad decisions on your side ... Get counselling/coaching/Pastoral care from a believer/church etc. It will be very difficult to detangle this messy situation and stabilise the emotions that go with that on your own. Try to harmonise the relation with your ex - you both need to co-parent; don't be negative about him towards the children (even when you feel this is warranted). I wish/pray you blessing

 

[Richard T]

I am sorry your situation is so dire. I pray some light of God's goodness comes to you in unexpected ways. Ways that can lift you up there financially, spiritually, and emotionally. At some point (hopefully soon) I really do think you will be able to turn a corner. I like too that you consider your options and are seeking ways to make the situation better. If it is any help I like the scripture piece that says "a bruised reed I will not crush" in one of the gospels.

I once prayed with a pastor from Mozambique some decades ago. He conveyed to a mission base how desperate things were in the poorest country on earth at that time. Little food, some believers having no clothes at all, no soap even. It was as desperate as I ever heard or saw. After everyone listened I expected God would move with some great encouragement or even a partial solution to help. Instead, it was basically a word that came forth that "God's grace is sufficient." He accepted that word humbly and thankfully and to this day I still don't fully know myself what that means other than God is going to be there through that darkness and somehow the believer is going to make it through.

For more encouragement I would at the notion of a reversal of fortune. Specifically that the low would be brought high and the high would be brought low. It occurs at least two times specifically like that for Hannah (I Sam. Ch 1-2) and also for Mary in Luke 2. I like too the principle that the devil is going to have to pay for what he has stole from you. I would say yes, that even the suffering of the consequences of your actions are still going to constitute a restitution of sorts coming to you in some way. Just be a sure as you can that it is from God.

In a practical way I can advise you on the black mold if you want to describe the problem a bit more. You do have to fix the leak that feeds the mold but perhaps this was already done? Next, you can remediate the mold, either by replacing the drywall or in some cases spray a bleach solution, then after it dries use a sealer or mold abatement type of paint and then it can be painted over with a wall paint.

Praying God's best and path to victory for you. God bless.

 

[Godcrazy]

I recall the bible talks about those who say God`s grace be sufficient to those they actually could have done something for and how the bible practically call their faith dead. I also recall the story about the man on the road everyone walked by.
Do you remember what church that is in Mozambique?

OP how about going to the council the authorities in your area they have programs especially for singles with kids, for housing food assistance etc try that
You mentioned your own mother was in a similar situation with kids. From a psychological viewpoint it sounds like we have some deep seated patterns of repetition learned early. Find what you are thinking and doing that is repeating what you have seen early. And what belief systems. Make the unconscious conscious. when you do you won`t repeat.
you talk about abuse in your family. you have only told us a little. How long has this abuse gone on?
That can imply again patterns you need to look at, and find how it is repeated,and why.
you can learn a lot by reading psychology books your self, for example, Carl Jung and Alice Miller. journal. write down your thoughts and patterns. That way it is easier to see.
Predators like your x prey on vulnerable kind people. It is unfortunately a fact. They have an inner radar for that. They smell it. Strong boundaries is a must, what you tolerate in a man. And not less. I recommend Dr Ramani on youtube and Lisa Bileau. That is a lot of information and help. you need to set boundaries. healthy. you need to know what the red flags are, what people to watch out for. with a past as abuse that is crucial because when you are abused you are not allowed boundaries and it breaks down including your self esteem. work on self esteem and do things you enjoy hobbies. self worth breaks down with abuse. work on that. there are many you tube pages and self help books. If you cannot get to a professional which would be the best for you tbh. because it is more than just surface level stuff.
you most likely suffer anxiety and depression as well. and cpsd. not uncommon after what you have been through. try eat as healthy as possible as clean as you can and light exercise it can help.
seek the authorities for help with your situation and mental health do it now before it goes worse. you have to do something.
Remember, God takes a step with you, then you take one step, and God take one etc.
you will go through struggle, but you won`t fall. God have promised that and that He is with the righteous.
you are not alone.

 

[Godcrazy]

I see that from the beginning you could not see red flags. Pre marital well not good but I would have thought more about why he pressured that I mean, should have respected your wants and needs.
Second signs of mental health issues about moving to the cabin
three the abuse from your family.
Not very positive for seeing red flags. sounds like a lot going on early and under the surface.
Is he a good father or is he just as abusive still because if he is you have to stay away from him and with the kids.
If you are in an abusive situation there are women`s aid shelters centres that can help all over
you have to protect your inner peace at all cost. LISTEN to your body how you feel at all times! you will feel who is safe and is not. If you learn to listen. Anything and anyone that goes against your inner peace has to be out. when we have been abused, not taught boundaries and red flags etc we do not listen to ourselves, we do not learn how to see red flags and set boundaries. Other people that have had that do not understand this and judges.
Listen to yourself. your body is never wrong.

 

[Godcrazy]

16 years ago, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. I was a prodigal child who knew God as a very young girl. I had been chasing the world and all its sinful fruits, and suddenly found divine love and grace.

Shortly after my conversion, I met the man who would become my husband. We started with the premarital relations and I got pregnant 3 months after meeting him. And it's not like I had a bunch of lust for him - I sincerely believed that we were meant to be together, and that my getting pregnant meant that God wanted us to be married. I actually was not attracted to him very much because he constantly belittled me for my past before Christ.

He convinced me that he would be happier in a cabin in the woods 500+ miles away from our families. I fought him on moving away, but the pressure was too great. He would be shaking from stress when he drove in the traffic-filled streets. His mom was verbally abusive to me, so I moved back in with my mom. Then, my brother was verbally abusive to me, in a very inappropriate and scary way. I felt like I had nowhere to go, and escaping to a remote cabin seemed like a safe option with all the chaos and tumult in our hometown.

That was 15 years ago.

It was the worst decision I ever made.

God even warned me in a dream. He showed me the chaos I would be walking into. I still moved here, feeling like I had no other option.

The culture shock has been extremely intense. I have been misunderstood and excluded by the people here. I used to be a colorful, articulate Christian with unbridled enthusiasm for life and my walk with God.

Now, I have been beaten up by life so severely that no one recognizes me.

I had to leave my ex-husband 6 years ago. My health was breaking down because of the abuse and isolation. Sadly, though I have been recovering the best I can, I am still unhealthy. It is not for lack of trying. I eat very well and work out regularly.

I have no friends. I have no boyfriend. My kids are my only company, and I refuse to be co-dependent with them. My mom did that to me. So I keep my big problems to myself, and suffer silently.

I tried going to church. I got attacked for not being vaccinated.

I tried dating. I got hurt multiple times and needed to call the cops.

I tried getting medical care. My doctor ignored me for a week. I ended up in urgent care diagnosed with an infection. The antibiotic gave me a bad reaction, and I needed an ambulance the next day. My support system is so non-existent that I needed to pull my oldest child out of school to watch the younger kids just so I could go the emergency room.

I tried visiting my family back home. But the courts will not allow me to move there with the kids, since my ex says that he can take over the parenting duties. However, this reality only exists in his head. He doesn't even check his mail or write back to emails. He cannot manage complex medical care for disabled children.

I have been looking for a new place to live for 4 summers in a row. I have been rejected and denied because of things beyond my control, like a bankruptcy because my ex-husband financially abused me (to the tune of $50,000 in credit card debt). An eviction incorrectly filed against me, but the court will not remove it from my record.

As such, my kids and I have been forced to live in an unhealthy home that has black mold, because we cannot find another place to live. The neighborhood is geographically isolated and socially deserted. The people here are so unfriendly that they go inside whenever we go out.

And this locale that my ex moved to is quite beautiful, and it had low Covid numbers. So now the housing has been bought up by people, and there is nowhere left to live. I am looking at dingy apartments for my kids and me that cost double what I am paying now.

I am not depressed.
I am demoralized by life.

Every day (almost) I read my Bible. I need to. I need God. I have been clinging to Him for dear life.
I don't understand what He's doing in my life.
I need Him to guide me through this storm.

There is a therapy that is called Better Help they can be found online they have help all over the US. Where you can do it online, and at rates affordable and lower rates. I highly suggest for you to have a look. Because you cannot continue as it is, you have to start getting some help, start somewhere to get better again. you cannot afford to continue like it is.
You can also look for christian counceling some do it free. You have to try, day by day, one thing a time, to get yourself to a better place. Remember, God will work with you, when you take a step with him

 

[Godcrazy]

In terms of abuse and bad partners you might find it valuable to look up narcissism, Dr Ramani, you tube, Dr Les Carter, you tube, Rebecca Mandeville, you tube all doctors and professors in psychology and family systems to narcissism and you can learn tons about abuse and red flags and boundaries. Things you might never been taught that you need. you mention you have no friends, I have neither, long story similar. It is better to be alone than in the wrong company wrong company destroys good habits as the bible says. I value my peace of all and God. first is to take care of yourself and focus on God and your peace and do things to feel better. Because ultimately, no one can do it for you it is only you, and God. No partner, no boyfriend or husband no friends can do it for you. No one can carry you you have to walk. with God. Then, assistance and support is one thing but you have to yourself. This is your chance to get close to God. start walking, one step a time. Know everything is possible with God. Nothing is impossible for God. Nothing. If you need to talk I am here

 

[Richard T]

I recall the bible talks about those who say God`s grace be sufficient to those they actually could have done something for and how the bible practically call their faith dead. I also recall the story about the man on the road everyone walked by.
Do you remember what church that is in Mozambique?

OP how about going to the council the authorities in your area they have programs especially for singles with kids, for housing food assistance etc try that
You mentioned your own mother was in a similar situation with kids. From a psychological viewpoint it sounds like we have some deep seated patterns of repetition learned early. Find what you are thinking and doing that is repeating what you have seen early. And what belief systems. Make the unconscious conscious. when you do you won`t repeat.
you talk about abuse in your family. you have only told us a little. How long has this abuse gone on?
That can imply again patterns you need to look at, and find how it is repeated,and why.
you can learn a lot by reading psychology books your self, for example, Carl Jung and Alice Miller. journal. write down your thoughts and patterns. That way it is easier to see.
Predators like your x prey on vulnerable kind people. It is unfortunately a fact. They have an inner radar for that. They smell it. Strong boundaries is a must, what you tolerate in a man. And not less. I recommend Dr Ramani on youtube and Lisa Bileau. That is a lot of information and help. you need to set boundaries. healthy. you need to know what the red flags are, what people to watch out for. with a past as abuse that is crucial because when you are abused you are not allowed boundaries and it breaks down including your self esteem. work on self esteem and do things you enjoy hobbies. self worth breaks down with abuse. work on that. there are many you tube pages and self help books. If you cannot get to a professional which would be the best for you tbh. because it is more than just surface level stuff.
you most likely suffer anxiety and depression as well. and cpsd. not uncommon after what you have been through. try eat as healthy as possible as clean as you can and light exercise it can help.
seek the authorities for help with your situation and mental health do it now before it goes worse. you have to do something.
Remember, God takes a step with you, then you take one step, and God take one etc.
you will go through struggle, but you won`t fall. God have promised that and that He is with the righteous.
you are not alone.

If you could expound more on the bible's context of God's grace is sufficient I would appreciate it.
I don't recall the pastor ever mentioning the name the church. I know he was Pentecostal/Charismatic but likely unaffiliated. The meeting was hosted by Youth with a Mission but the pastor was not formally part of that group.

 

[Godcrazy]

If you could expound more on the bible's context of God's grace is sufficient I would appreciate it.
I don't recall the pastor ever mentioning the name the church. I know he was Pentecostal/Charismatic but likely unaffiliated. The meeting was hosted by Youth with a Mission but the pastor was not formally part of that group.

I think it was Paul.. I will look for the scriptures, will take time
Several places in the bible where it says to those suffering or asking for help and they reply go keep yourself warm etc and how they are chastised for saying that when they could have done something.
I also think the grace be sufficient was not exactly about not helping if someone did not have food or clothes, but meant other ways
It is my clear understanding that we have to do what we CAN, always

 

[bèlla]

OP how about going to the council the authorities in your area they have programs especially for singles with kids, for housing food assistance etc try that

The OP lives in America and her credit problems can prevent her from getting a place even if she qualifies. It’s up to the landlord and most would require a sizable down payment which could easily amount to three month’s security plus the first month of rent. The government doesn’t require them to accept all applicants and it’s a catch-22 that hinders many. We’ve also had recent legislation and cuts to the program and related services for the poor under Trump.

It’s a bad time to be in need in our country. The best thing she can do financially is to share her story and use it as a springboard for others in similar conditions who need encouragement. There’s a lot of people struggling now. Hearing from someone in similar straits can be uplifting if they’re pressing through. She can go on TikTok or YouTube and post something everyday. There’s many doing the same and some of them are in shelters. But it brings in the resources they wouldn’t have otherwise. The other option is showing a skill like cooking or baking. That’s popular.

~bella

 

[Godcrazy]

The OP lives in America and her credit problems can prevent her from getting a place even if she qualifies. It’s up to the landlord and most would require a sizable down payment which could easily amount to three month’s security plus the first month of rent. The government doesn’t require them to accept all applicants and it’s a catch-22 that hinders many. We’ve also had recent legislation and cuts to the program and related services for the poor under Trump.

It’s a bad time to be in need in our country. The best thing she can do financially is to share her story and use it as a springboard for others in similar conditions who need encouragement. There’s a lot of people struggling now. Hearing from someone in similar straits can be uplifting if they’re pressing through. She can go on TikTok or YouTube and post something everyday. There’s many doing the same and some of them are in shelters. But it brings in the resources they wouldn’t have otherwise. The other option is showing a skill like cooking or baking. That’s popular.

~bella

It is a sad situation and the many homeless and all how they are treated in America. We haven`t really had much of it what I know here, and definitely not in my home country Sweden but it is coming, and here we have always been able to pay like six months upfront if you do not have "perfect" credit history(can be for many reasons, students, self employed, bad history or just patch income) here the rental system have always been bad, where you could get a notice for any reason and having to move in two months. Now the government is making a new legislation to abolish such practices and introduce long term, that means, if they want to sell or bad behaviour otherwise you are secured more or less. (and they also have to offer to you first, if they sell) That,and rent control that you can dispute through ombudsman as the rents have increased dramatically and they will only be able to rise them one time a year. That and you get 4 moths notice instead of 2, and you only have to give 2. They want to abolish the six months to a year upfront, but they are challenging it,as so many groups depends on it and it would also crash student accommodation, so we will see what happens with that. I consider it nuts to go along with it. I mean, if you have the money and you can prove your`e a good tenant otherwise. So that is how it is here. In Scandinavia especially Sweden there you can live as long as you want, no deposit either. But rents are increasing there too. But generally very high standard on everything and a certain amount of cubbards and shelves and wardrobes. I plan to buy my own apartment over there probably as holiday apartment because I get double for the money in conversion. So it will be cheap. And cheap rent. they are all top modern.

 

[bèlla]

It is a sad situation and the many homeless and all how they are treated in America.

We have a serious problem with homelessness. Some of it is due to job loss or health problems or the fallout from the moratorium. During the pandemic the government placed a freeze on housing payments. The result was catastrophic for property owners. The majority weren’t corporations. They were everyday people who owned a building and rented it out to tenants. The government didn’t make up the difference and they were made to forego rent for two years. Some tenants paid but many didn’t and the owners were put in a bind. No evictions were allowed during that period. A lot of people were burned and the flexibility they might have had is largely gone.

There’s been a noticeable shift in our culture as things continue to fray and many fall between the cracks. We have three societies operating simultaneously. Those who are completely unbothered financially. Those with some measure of struggle. And those hanging by a thread. The middle class is being hit the hardest and will suffer much in the coming years. Prices aren’t coming down anywhere and middle must be squeezed to create the structure some have in mind.

The Lord gives us clues to help us prepare and avoid calamity. But we don’t heed them or assume they’ll come from a pastor or another christian. Sometimes the hint is the devil speaking through his people. But we ignore it. When Klaus Schwab said we’d own nothing and be happy during a global crisis I believed him. A sane person doesn’t say that or celebrate the difference in air quality because everyone’s home. You‘re dealing with a special breed and when I saw his background I knew we were doomed. He kept company with our business and political leaders and they planned the world without our involvement.

When you see things like that you have to put on the brakes and go to your prayer closet for direction. We need the Lord’s plan in this age. They’ve cooked something up and you’d better believe it’s bad. But it’s hard to act when you’re weighed down with distractions or partisan thinking on religion and politics. You won’t wake up until the ship is sinking and that’s too late. This is a time for prayer and fasting. Only the Lord can guide our steps.

~bella

 

[Godcrazy]

We have a serious problem with homelessness. Some of it is due to job loss or health problems or the fallout from the moratorium. During the pandemic the government placed a freeze on housing payments. The result was catastrophic for property owners. The majority weren’t corporations. They were everyday people who owned a building and rented it out to tenants. The government didn’t make up the difference and they were made to forego rent for two years. Some tenants paid but many didn’t and the owners were put in a bind. No evictions were allowed during that period. A lot of people were burned and the flexibility they might have had is largely gone.

There’s been a noticeable shift in our culture as things continue to fray and many fall between the cracks. We have three societies operating simultaneously. Those who are completely unbothered financially. Those with some measure of struggle. And those hanging by a thread. The middle class is being hit the hardest and will suffer much in the coming years. Prices aren’t coming down anywhere and middle must be squeezed to create the structure some have in mind.

The Lord gives us clues to help us prepare and avoid calamity. But we don’t heed them or assume they’ll come from a pastor or another christian. Sometimes the hint is the devil speaking through his people. But we ignore it. When Klaus Schwab said we’d own nothing and be happy during a global crisis I believed him. A sane person doesn’t say that or celebrate the difference in air quality because everyone’s home. You‘re dealing with a special breed and when I saw his background I knew we were doomed. He kept company with our business and political leaders and they planned the world without our involvement.

When you see things like that you have to put on the brakes and go to your prayer closet for direction. We need the Lord’s plan in this age. They’ve cooked something up and you’d better believe it’s bad. But it’s hard to act when you’re weighed down with distractions or partisan thinking on religion and politics. You won’t wake up until the ship is sinking and that’s too late. This is a time for prayer and fasting. Only the Lord can guide our steps.

~bella

I believe you sista, I am awake to the true realities and who they are and their plans.
God has shown me through dreams exactly what their plans are even with AI. to put mans consciousness into AI. I saw it all. once in, no one gets out. Not even when they try to end it. I saw the robots. I saw the robot dogs. I saw the antichrist. I saw the mark. Jesus told me, they need NINE shots to hook you up to the cloud. He warned. He said it was an operating system long before anyone knew. check Endtimesproductions on youtube for a lot. the truth about nephilim, the end, everything. My plan is remote. Container living modern solar plot of growing. I can ride. My country have free to roam policy and nature everywhere never find all. lots of lakes too. However I saw their plans of chip every animals so you get traced I saw what happens. you have to understand, God has shown me for years. Everything happens to the t. the antichrist check Shalomgirl on youtube. she has things to say about Elon. Have you heard.

 

[Godcrazy]

We have a serious problem with homelessness. Some of it is due to job loss or health problems or the fallout from the moratorium. During the pandemic the government placed a freeze on housing payments. The result was catastrophic for property owners. The majority weren’t corporations. They were everyday people who owned a building and rented it out to tenants. The government didn’t make up the difference and they were made to forego rent for two years. Some tenants paid but many didn’t and the owners were put in a bind. No evictions were allowed during that period. A lot of people were burned and the flexibility they might have had is largely gone.

There’s been a noticeable shift in our culture as things continue to fray and many fall between the cracks. We have three societies operating simultaneously. Those who are completely unbothered financially. Those with some measure of struggle. And those hanging by a thread. The middle class is being hit the hardest and will suffer much in the coming years. Prices aren’t coming down anywhere and middle must be squeezed to create the structure some have in mind.

The Lord gives us clues to help us prepare and avoid calamity. But we don’t heed them or assume they’ll come from a pastor or another christian. Sometimes the hint is the devil speaking through his people. But we ignore it. When Klaus Schwab said we’d own nothing and be happy during a global crisis I believed him. A sane person doesn’t say that or celebrate the difference in air quality because everyone’s home. You‘re dealing with a special breed and when I saw his background I knew we were doomed. He kept company with our business and political leaders and they planned the world without our involvement.

When you see things like that you have to put on the brakes and go to your prayer closet for direction. We need the Lord’s plan in this age. They’ve cooked something up and you’d better believe it’s bad. But it’s hard to act when you’re weighed down with distractions or partisan thinking on religion and politics. You won’t wake up until the ship is sinking and that’s too late. This is a time for prayer and fasting. Only the Lord can guide our steps.

~bella

They try here too. My home country Sweden is still okay. we have always been keen on humanitarian rights and in ww2 we took in many. They have issues now as integration goes south and not used to things. But still. No inequality there and everyone have. and welfare system still good.
Here in UK they have put a bill forward that limits disabled and ill people from getting financial help that they depend on, severly reduced or taken away. Wants to introduce a point system where you need four points or more to get money at all, and if you for example only need help to wash yourself or cook food you are getting less points, not enough. They basically only want to give to the most severe. Discounting mental health issues or those in between. Same for top up finances that many depends on that have been qualified to ill to work. They want to take that away totally. Now the government have made rebellion and it is unlikely it ever pass because it is over 100 rebellions and the government is only 169 mandates. They have criticised them a long time and said to tax the rich more but oh no. Usually this government labour are for the ill and weak but.. it has changed.

 

[bèlla]

My plan is remote. Container living modern solar plot of growing. I can ride. My country have free to roam policy and nature everywhere never find all. lots of lakes too. However I saw their plans of chip every animals so you get traced I saw what happens. you have to understand

Drones eliminate the need to send soldiers in and they have the technology to see through walls. That’s why listening to geopolitical news is helpful. You learn a lot of things you won’t hear elsewhere. Like bunker busters. ;-)

God gave man dominion over animals. But only the ones he created. One of the homesteaders I follow mentioned a report about the bee population and how it‘s rapidly diminishing. That’s the opening theme on the first episode of Black Mirror. The teacher was instructing the class about honeybee drones.

Here in UK they have put a bill forward that limits disabled and ill people from getting financial help that they depend on, severly reduced or taken away. Wants to introduce a point system where you need four points or more to get money at all, and if you for example only need help to wash yourself or cook food you are getting less points, not enough. They basically only want to give to the most severe. Discounting mental health issues or those in between.

Everyone is getting universal basic income. It will work differently everywhere but all countries will adopt it. We’ve had pilots here that provide $500 per month or more and track everything you spend. They were accepting applicants a year ago but I don’t know if that’s still the case.

~bella

 

[Godcrazy]

Drones eliminate the need to send soldiers in and they have the technology to see through walls. That’s why listening to geopolitical news is helpful. You learn a lot of things you won’t hear elsewhere. Like bunker busters. ;-)

God gave man dominion over animals. But only the ones he created. One of the homesteaders I follow mentioned a report about the bee population and how it‘s rapidly diminishing. That’s the opening theme on the first episode of Black Mirror. The teacher was instructing the class about honeybee drones.



Everyone is getting universal basic income. It will work differently everywhere but all countries will adopt it. We’ve had pilots here that provide $500 per month or more and track everything you spend. They were accepting applicants a year ago but I don’t know if that’s still the case.

~bella

waw that is disgusting, 500 is nothing! No one can live on that surely. Better get a place and grow that is probably how to best avoid. But we know they are coming, eventually. yes I have heard about the bees, also when dolphins strand themselves and fish then it is about four years left, they have always said it. But I`m thinking..what about growing fish and bees underground or in ware houses! same for food. could be a huge thing. then people can still get food.
Shalomgirl was Elon`s nanny. She was precured to him. when he was tiny he opened a portal with his mothers ancient artefacts and it did open a huge swirl over him and lights,dark but lights. She saw the ancient beings part animals and human looking but not. they were taller than anything. They lifted her up, and she called for Jesus as she had just been saved and the beings dropped her and they flew out on the living room floor near his room. He asked her why she didn`t like his friends. He had just been trying to sacrifice her. She asked the family if he was the antichrist to which they said no, but he will present the mark, and when he does, the antichrist will take the stage. LOOK at what he is doing NOW!

 

[Godcrazy]

Drones eliminate the need to send soldiers in and they have the technology to see through walls. That’s why listening to geopolitical news is helpful. You learn a lot of things you won’t hear elsewhere. Like bunker busters. ;-)

God gave man dominion over animals. But only the ones he created. One of the homesteaders I follow mentioned a report about the bee population and how it‘s rapidly diminishing. That’s the opening theme on the first episode of Black Mirror. The teacher was instructing the class about honeybee drones.



Everyone is getting universal basic income. It will work differently everywhere but all countries will adopt it. We’ve had pilots here that provide $500 per month or more and track everything you spend. They were accepting applicants a year ago but I don’t know if that’s still the case.

~bella

we live in the days of Noah for sure. All the high tech civilisations same as in the days of Noah that they buried underground now surfacing and that they talk about, Egypt and all. It is huge in the new age and it caught me big time, until the real truth was explained.The deception with new age,and the occult, is big on this. And now they have just got fuel, with everything that have been discovered. It has been hidden that the days of Noah was high tech and huge monuments. well, they did hybridisation too and gene manipulation, go figure. The deception about these things is huge in the new age and occult. Many never wrestle themselves out because of it. They definitely use that as proof for their beliefs and how the bible got it suppressed. But it is all about the fallen angels and the nephilim, the constructions are that tall and the underground tunnels and labyrinths too. And the tech just as mysterious. But they deny this. we as christians are like Noah and have to shed light on this. It was so hard to get out of you can`t believe it. It is Gods miracle.

 

[Godcrazy]

Drones eliminate the need to send soldiers in and they have the technology to see through walls. That’s why listening to geopolitical news is helpful. You learn a lot of things you won’t hear elsewhere. Like bunker busters. ;-)

God gave man dominion over animals. But only the ones he created. One of the homesteaders I follow mentioned a report about the bee population and how it‘s rapidly diminishing. That’s the opening theme on the first episode of Black Mirror. The teacher was instructing the class about honeybee drones.



Everyone is getting universal basic income. It will work differently everywhere but all countries will adopt it. We’ve had pilots here that provide $500 per month or more and track everything you spend. They were accepting applicants a year ago but I don’t know if that’s still the case.

~bella

I saw robot dogs hunt down those that dared to hunt or fish. Many were taken. Only few survived. Hiding. I think those who had grown fish and foods hidden were the ones doing best. This is exactly why they dna sequenced everything or about to. And why farmland is bought up

 

[XrxrX]

When the normal man goes through fire, they usually become a denizen. When a Believer does, we come out something quite different.

"And they said to Him, “Grant that we may sit, one on Your right and one on Your left, in Your glory.” But Jesus said to them, “You do not know what you are asking. Are you able to drink the cup that I drink, or to be baptized with the baptism with which I am baptized?”
And they said to Him, “We are able.”

And Jesus said to them,

“The cup that I drink you shall drink...

and you shall be baptized..

with the baptism with which I am baptized."

He didn't say count the cost for no reason, and when you cross the threshold.. and the Adversary know you aren't coming back, you find out what it's like when hell pours out it's fury on you.
But... on the other side of that fire, you become a refined Creature equipped in a whole new way.
Hang in there, the sun will rise again!

 

[Paulwat]

Thank you for bravely sharing your testimony. Your pain is real, but so is your faith — and it’s shining through even in the darkest valley. I'm so sorry to hear what you've been througj and hope things heal for you soon.

God sees you. He has not forgotten you. Like Job, like Joseph, like countless others, you are walking through a season of testing — but the Lord is walking with you. Your faithfulness in the storm honors Him more than you know.

You’ve endured rejection, abuse, sickness, and injustice, but you have not let go of Jesus. That is a testimony in itself. As Scripture says:

“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed... struck down, but not destroyed.”
— 2 Corinthians 4:8–9

Don’t let the failures of people make you doubt the love of God. The Church is still your family — even if it takes time to find the right fellowship. Keep reading the Word. Keep praying honestly. Ask God for strength, for a new home, for godly friends — He is still Jehovah Jireh, our Provider.

Even when you don’t understand what He’s doing, cling to the truth that He is working all things for your good.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
— Psalm 34:18

You are not alone. Jesus is with you, and your story is not over.