you got problem? well here one about me..

went i was born..no one knew that i was deaf...i learn to lip read myself since baby age...by the time i was 5 we had find out...i could alway hear my dad talk but ever my mom...i only knew what she was saying if she was looking at me and i could read her lips...so at age 5 i went to get a hearing test done...i had a pro. test me..the test was over and he said i that i don't have a hearing problem...but my mom told him it was because that i was reading his body ( went pushing a bottem i would see that his arm move and knew he push something and went talking he would cover his mouth but with how good i was reading your face i could make out what word he would say just by looking at his checks and eyes-brow) the guy didn't really think that my mom was telling the truth so he go back to check by giving my a list of the SAME words agina but this time covering his face...well i only got a few words right...and the guy was really mad and told someone else to do the job because no one ever was able to tick him like me..and that was went we find out i was 1/2deaf..it was only a year later that i move and went to school..all the kids that would beat me up or make fun of me just because of my hearing problem..and after 2years at the school i switch to a christian school..here you would think that everyone would be kinder...but not in my case..it was soo bad that i wanted to go back to my old school..i mean even the teacher would be mean too me and talk to me as if i was 2years old..witch i had hated more then anything in my life! i ever did go back to my old school though..here i am still going to the same school...after 5grade..went i to my normal hearing test like ever year i hear bad new..that my hearing had drop to were im became 2/3 deaf...and over the years it only gotten worst...school life got harder but the harder time of school so far i would have to say was in 6grade because of my teacher..she will make me feel like my age..didn't treat me as someone low just because of my hearing and wasn't giving a excuess for not doing or saying things right she would give me more homework then other and make me work harder yah it was hard at the time but now went i look back at it i think "if she hadn't been hard on me i would never be standing here where i am now" in 8grade i find out that im now 3/4 deaf by 9grade i became over 3/4 deaf the hearding doc said by the time im 21 i could be compley deaf..it was also that year that i was glad of a choise that i had made..to understand the choise i need to tell you about the time i was haiwaii...there was this one time in haiwaii i could hear EVERYTHING! i could hear water and the wind blowing and cat moewing and ect things i never heard because this went on for 2week that would had given my time to get use to hearding new things at the end of the 2week i was thinking of how i had alway wanted to be like everyone to hear everything...and then i heard a voice somewhere saying "katrina...i'm going to give you a choise..you can have full hearing or be deaf for life..you can pick and i will do witch ever you pick" i think to myself to have my full hearing to be just like anyone else...ya right!! i cannt stand it!! i like being deaf!! then i yell "God i wish to be the way you to made me! to be deaf! i know there has to be a reason to be to be like this and i don't want to miss out on it!!" i could just see Him having the bigest smile on His face and saying that my girl.." it was wasnt long after that i got to see one of the reason why i was deaf..i had come back home and the doc wanted to do test to find out why im deaf..and maybe even get this thingy to help me hear things better...i'm in the hospitable waiting for them to call my name..and deicaed to go to the compture they had and check my fb and tell ppl that i was doing good so far..and my dad come up behide me and was looking for a seat next to me went i hear say "fill out paper work for child" the lady next to me go "yah i just had a baby and i don't want my ex bf to see her went him drinking and everything" and began to cry..and my dad go "yah i think i can until will i hope that everthing go well for you" she say "yah i wish that was so..he came here to see her the baby i mean and treating the nuse that he would kill them if they don't let him see his baby" my dad only say im sorry about that...and after a few mins i tell my dad that everyone was praying that everything go well for me and nothing wrong and how i was thankful for these paryer...then the woman next to me look at me and ask..your a christian? i look at her with a big smile..and say "you bet i am" she smile back and then ask why i was here..and i told her to get test done to see why im deaf...deaf? she say all i say is yepp and she saying how she was sorry for me and how i know what she was saying if i cannt hear her at all i told her that im not sorry that im this way and that i can lips read what she saying..then i ask if i could pray for her and her baby..she began to cry and say plz do so we do and find out that she a chirstian looking for a new church and everything...and i thinkful to the fact that i was deaf bc if i wasnt i would never had met her or be able to had help her...later that week i hear the new of all my test...they say there nothing that they can find for me being deaf...this is what i say "like i said be4 i don't care how or why im deaf bc i know the reason why.." they ask why i was all say is " Bc God made me this way for a reason and im going to find that reason!" and here i am tell you a small story of me being deaf..i know there other ppl out there who deaf or has other problem but let me just tell you one thing...don't listen to what other has to say about you and your problem only worry about God and just let Him use you for what He was too bc after all He is the one who made you that way so there got to be a reason why and if you havent finder it out yet then just wait and stay in God will but even me i still don't know what He going to use me for but i can bet this it something BIG! and wounderfully..so ever give up or worry about what other has to say