Writing the right way.

I used to have a tendency to make lots of posts on a LiveJournal account that I have. Twice I've had my privacy invaded. Why do I feel the need to hide my thoughts and feelings? I suppose I've always had walls up around my heart. Letting them down has not proven to be a wise choice in my experience. Bottom line, I'm still afraid of what others think. Perhaps here I can learn to let go of fear and judgement. Maybe I can even develop a closer relationship with Christ. That should always be my goal. I suppose the biggest reason for the fear of someone close to me reading my posts was the nature of what I had to say. It became more of a venting place than anything else. I've always been the type to hold things in; I hate confrontations. Once upon a time I even loved to write. I wrote through my anxiety and depression and so churned out rough edged poetry and short stories. Once a professor wrote "worthy of Edgar A. Poe himself" and I glowed for days. I wrote what I knew. My writing has not evolved or grown. That isn't to say that I've evolved past the anxiety and depression entirely, but I do better in coping these days. I hope that I may be able to nudge it forward, and let it bloom into something lovely, promising, and positive. With that, I'm going to end my first blog here on CF.