I have not been CF in awhile but there are major changes. I am sad to see some though.. I wanted to read some of my old entries on my old blog.. I wonder how I would do that.. Anyway.. I am happy to be back.. I am in need of some venting and spiritual guidance so whomever reads feel free to comment.
I have been struggling with weight for several years. I am now at my heaviest which is close to 190 and I am getting depressed. I need to get the determination and commitment to make a change but I am stuck. i am stuck between two extremes. My parents come to visit in 10 days and I am very anxious because they have not seen me and will notice the extra weight... I am sad about this and with the kind of family and large family ever one talks and its usually someting negative and I am sure when my parents come many of them will come over to see them and will talk about me.. They are very blunt also and it takes me back to childhood when my cheeks where pinched because they where chuncky.. I hate it.. GOD PLEASE HELP ME TO HAVE SELF CONTROL AND DEDICATION AND BEGING A NEW HEALTHY LIFESTYLE>>> THAT I CAN HEAL FROM PAST HURTS AND WALK WITH MY HEAD HELD HIGH NO MATTER IF I AM 190 or 125.. Let me accept myself and love myself and honor this temple that you dwell in.
AMEN!!!!!!
I have been struggling with weight for several years. I am now at my heaviest which is close to 190 and I am getting depressed. I need to get the determination and commitment to make a change but I am stuck. i am stuck between two extremes. My parents come to visit in 10 days and I am very anxious because they have not seen me and will notice the extra weight... I am sad about this and with the kind of family and large family ever one talks and its usually someting negative and I am sure when my parents come many of them will come over to see them and will talk about me.. They are very blunt also and it takes me back to childhood when my cheeks where pinched because they where chuncky.. I hate it.. GOD PLEASE HELP ME TO HAVE SELF CONTROL AND DEDICATION AND BEGING A NEW HEALTHY LIFESTYLE>>> THAT I CAN HEAL FROM PAST HURTS AND WALK WITH MY HEAD HELD HIGH NO MATTER IF I AM 190 or 125.. Let me accept myself and love myself and honor this temple that you dwell in.
AMEN!!!!!!
