Morning. Not a fan of this time of day personally, at least those days that require me to go where they pay me. These next couple days are going to be incredibly difficult and stressful. Today will not be the worst of it by any means. In fact, if luck has anything to do with it, today will be a good day and we can get a headstart on the nightmare that will be tomorrow.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have the work ethic and job loyalty that I do. I get myself too worked up and stressed out about things I can't control nor should I be worried about because they're not my worry. I do though, even at jobs I nearly despise. I've always been this way, and I've been trying for years to stop. But it hasn't worked yet.
What I would give to live off my photography. I'm slowly at least building a business that will bring an income, but it's a very long way away from providing a full time income. Someday. And I'm working on it.. but half of me is terrified to continue. My fear of failure is stronger than it ever was. For now though, I do have a paying job, no matter how much I dislike it and the environment or unhealthy state it puts me in. At least it pays the rent.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have the work ethic and job loyalty that I do. I get myself too worked up and stressed out about things I can't control nor should I be worried about because they're not my worry. I do though, even at jobs I nearly despise. I've always been this way, and I've been trying for years to stop. But it hasn't worked yet.
What I would give to live off my photography. I'm slowly at least building a business that will bring an income, but it's a very long way away from providing a full time income. Someday. And I'm working on it.. but half of me is terrified to continue. My fear of failure is stronger than it ever was. For now though, I do have a paying job, no matter how much I dislike it and the environment or unhealthy state it puts me in. At least it pays the rent.
