We have all been there. We've all built up a wall to keep ourselves safe from outside harm. Whether it was a wall against family, friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, looks, or outlooks on things or people, we have all done it. And whether we want it to happen or not that wall is either going to come down sooner or later, or it has already fallen. Just like the King of Jericho, we have built a wall to protect us from outside harm, something that will affect us and alter our lives. And something or someone is eventually going to make it fall.
This past year I built a wall. I spaced myself from even the thought of dating because I wanted to get closer to God. I am so happy with my decision on growing closer with the Lord, but like I said, a wall was built throughout that process. I had my reasoning for not wanting to date due to a particularly bad experience that made me want nothing at all to do with dating. I grew closer with God each day and was extremely solid in my faith... It's been a little over a year since that wall went up and I finally feel as if I am in a place where I am ready to at-least try.
Recently I have been pining after a certain guy and I have really started to like him. He is a shy guy which is something I like about him. The wall I had built in the past year started to come down, and once it completely fell, I didn't feel the protection I thought I would. To be honest I feel a little unarmed, defenseless, and out in the open. I don't like the feeling because it's something I'm not used to. I felt that if I let my wall down, that he'd be there. But I've learned that even though this wall I have built fell down, and maybe it fell down for the wrong person, it may not be a bad thing that it fell.
We're taught at a young age to dream big. Well, dreams are fueled by hope. And hope is something that has always been around. Hebrews 6:19 says, "We have this anchor as a hope for the soul, firm and secure." That anchor could be many different things for each of us, for me it's God's love. His love is firm and secure for me, and it gives me HOPE that he wants to provide all he can for me. He wants to give me what will make me happy. Maybe I don't end up with this guy. And maybe I am currently uncomfortable with the open space I am standing in. But if I have learned anything this past year, it's that God will never fail, he has a plan, and he wants me and you to be happy.
I am HOPING for a positive outcome, but if not, it's God's will. Hopefully my wall is down for the good of things, and I can dream big and stay anchored in my hopes. If anyone does read this, know that I am praying for you and your wall, and that God has a plan.
xoxo
This past year I built a wall. I spaced myself from even the thought of dating because I wanted to get closer to God. I am so happy with my decision on growing closer with the Lord, but like I said, a wall was built throughout that process. I had my reasoning for not wanting to date due to a particularly bad experience that made me want nothing at all to do with dating. I grew closer with God each day and was extremely solid in my faith... It's been a little over a year since that wall went up and I finally feel as if I am in a place where I am ready to at-least try.
Recently I have been pining after a certain guy and I have really started to like him. He is a shy guy which is something I like about him. The wall I had built in the past year started to come down, and once it completely fell, I didn't feel the protection I thought I would. To be honest I feel a little unarmed, defenseless, and out in the open. I don't like the feeling because it's something I'm not used to. I felt that if I let my wall down, that he'd be there. But I've learned that even though this wall I have built fell down, and maybe it fell down for the wrong person, it may not be a bad thing that it fell.
We're taught at a young age to dream big. Well, dreams are fueled by hope. And hope is something that has always been around. Hebrews 6:19 says, "We have this anchor as a hope for the soul, firm and secure." That anchor could be many different things for each of us, for me it's God's love. His love is firm and secure for me, and it gives me HOPE that he wants to provide all he can for me. He wants to give me what will make me happy. Maybe I don't end up with this guy. And maybe I am currently uncomfortable with the open space I am standing in. But if I have learned anything this past year, it's that God will never fail, he has a plan, and he wants me and you to be happy.
I am HOPING for a positive outcome, but if not, it's God's will. Hopefully my wall is down for the good of things, and I can dream big and stay anchored in my hopes. If anyone does read this, know that I am praying for you and your wall, and that God has a plan.
xoxo
