I'm furious. I'm not quite sure what I am furious at, or whom, other than myself, perhaps God, I don't know...
Things were SEEMINGLY getting better. Yesterday was the FIRST day in a LONG time I hadn't had horrid thoughts, and now, lo and behold, they have returned, and with a bite. Why is it one step forward and five steps back?!
This is sickening. Everything now is just plain sickening. I see the break in the clouds, only to be zapped with lightening...it's all a cruel game.
Who am I? To whom do I anwser to anymore? I don't really know. I've lost sense of myself through this, and it's now worse than it was before the new 'sequence of treatment'. Far worse.
No one knows though...it doesn't effect my work IRL, it doesn't effect my work other places, it doesn't show.
Eloi, eloi...
Things were SEEMINGLY getting better. Yesterday was the FIRST day in a LONG time I hadn't had horrid thoughts, and now, lo and behold, they have returned, and with a bite. Why is it one step forward and five steps back?!
This is sickening. Everything now is just plain sickening. I see the break in the clouds, only to be zapped with lightening...it's all a cruel game.
Who am I? To whom do I anwser to anymore? I don't really know. I've lost sense of myself through this, and it's now worse than it was before the new 'sequence of treatment'. Far worse.
No one knows though...it doesn't effect my work IRL, it doesn't effect my work other places, it doesn't show.
Eloi, eloi...
