God knows what we need when we need it
Someone had a quote in their sig here that said something like when it's getting really hard they remember that all God asks is that we be His friend and they find they can do that.
I'm not sure what is going on at the moment
I'm unsettled and disgruntled and angry (not as much as I was though) been feeling overwhelmed by expectations and deadlines (that I've put on myself too)
And I've been coming to realise God seems to just want me to talk to Him just hang out with Him
I guess part of me is afraid that if I really tell Him where I'm at with Him and how I feel and the stuff going round in my head, the real stuff that me and God might have a falling out. that God might turn His back on me, that I might turn my back on God. I dont think God would turn His back on me - it's the me turning my back on God that scares me.. but I dont think I really could now.. when He took hold of me He promised to never leave me. He really did take hold of me
So here I am sitting here typing this and God is here
In all my weariness at trying and goal setting and what seems like now just surface life stuff God is here
In all the fears and failures and ways I wrestle with God because of being scared and full of regret God is still here
In the middle of my life which some days I feel like is not much of a life God is still here
I dont think I'm a shining light for His Kingdom much flickers barely at all some days but God is still here
I have struggles with church at times wanting to leave it but God keeps me there (He thankfully has hold of me by the scruff of my neck sometimes turns me round and I head back lol) God is still here
Everpresent He is described in the Bible
Why does He do that
Hang in there with me
I dont get it
but He does
And here I am putting off having some real time with Him because I have so much emotion in me that I need to talk to Him about and work through with Him
got a very helpful email about working through emotions that we can with God, even if angry at God we are allowed to work through it with God. And when we do that we will always end up knowing God is right in the end and coming back to God - I like that bit its the way it is. God is God after all
there was more
so God has mercifully given me some space to hang out with Him and work through this mass of emotion that's kinda tearing at me and through me where it's just me and Him the next few days
God willing
God bless
Someone had a quote in their sig here that said something like when it's getting really hard they remember that all God asks is that we be His friend and they find they can do that.
I'm not sure what is going on at the moment
I'm unsettled and disgruntled and angry (not as much as I was though) been feeling overwhelmed by expectations and deadlines (that I've put on myself too)
And I've been coming to realise God seems to just want me to talk to Him just hang out with Him
I guess part of me is afraid that if I really tell Him where I'm at with Him and how I feel and the stuff going round in my head, the real stuff that me and God might have a falling out. that God might turn His back on me, that I might turn my back on God. I dont think God would turn His back on me - it's the me turning my back on God that scares me.. but I dont think I really could now.. when He took hold of me He promised to never leave me. He really did take hold of me
So here I am sitting here typing this and God is here
In all my weariness at trying and goal setting and what seems like now just surface life stuff God is here
In all the fears and failures and ways I wrestle with God because of being scared and full of regret God is still here
In the middle of my life which some days I feel like is not much of a life God is still here
I dont think I'm a shining light for His Kingdom much flickers barely at all some days but God is still here
I have struggles with church at times wanting to leave it but God keeps me there (He thankfully has hold of me by the scruff of my neck sometimes turns me round and I head back lol) God is still here
Everpresent He is described in the Bible
Why does He do that
Hang in there with me
I dont get it
but He does
And here I am putting off having some real time with Him because I have so much emotion in me that I need to talk to Him about and work through with Him
got a very helpful email about working through emotions that we can with God, even if angry at God we are allowed to work through it with God. And when we do that we will always end up knowing God is right in the end and coming back to God - I like that bit its the way it is. God is God after all
there was more
so God has mercifully given me some space to hang out with Him and work through this mass of emotion that's kinda tearing at me and through me where it's just me and Him the next few days
God willing
God bless
