During my senior year of high school, I had a girlfriend who I loved very much. Or, who I thought that I loved. Anyway, we had constant problems, one of them being her over-controlling father and her pushy mother. Another issue was that I was tempted constantly to be too close physically. I am still a virgin, but I came close to caving in too many times.
She ended up telling me that she cheated on me on Valentine's Day. I was furious. We hadn't seen each other in a while because her father felt she was too obsessed with me, and I had a lot going on with my upcoming graduation. The whole thing was like a huge implosion. I didn't know what to do. I just told her I would forgive her, but that she would have to do a lot and earn back my trust before we could have a healthy relationship again. of course we never had a healthy relationship anyway.
A month later, she dumped me. On the phone. With no real reason except that vaguely it was ll my fault.
I didn't know what to do. I hated her, and I hated myself. Where was I to turn? Was God there? What was I to do or say or believe? I was completely and utterly lost.
This was one of those situations where I had to let go and give it all to God. Only he can show me the way to happiness and peace that can build mountains. I was in constant prayer, and in many ways I still am. I want to be in love, but it will take time and trust in God. I don't need just another good kisser--I need a best friend and someone who will be my strong and loving accountability partner. It will be an effort.
But God triumphs through all. Amen.
She ended up telling me that she cheated on me on Valentine's Day. I was furious. We hadn't seen each other in a while because her father felt she was too obsessed with me, and I had a lot going on with my upcoming graduation. The whole thing was like a huge implosion. I didn't know what to do. I just told her I would forgive her, but that she would have to do a lot and earn back my trust before we could have a healthy relationship again. of course we never had a healthy relationship anyway.
A month later, she dumped me. On the phone. With no real reason except that vaguely it was ll my fault.
I didn't know what to do. I hated her, and I hated myself. Where was I to turn? Was God there? What was I to do or say or believe? I was completely and utterly lost.
This was one of those situations where I had to let go and give it all to God. Only he can show me the way to happiness and peace that can build mountains. I was in constant prayer, and in many ways I still am. I want to be in love, but it will take time and trust in God. I don't need just another good kisser--I need a best friend and someone who will be my strong and loving accountability partner. It will be an effort.
But God triumphs through all. Amen.
