I know it is not uncommon for college freshman to feel overwhelmed and stressed out, perhaps homesick...but it is weird for me because I have not been overly stressed until about now. Sure, I have been stressed about school work and all that I have had to do, but it was something I could deal with because I had to do that in high school.
This weekend, everything just suddenly hit me. I went home because we had a three-day weekend, so I got to spend some much needed time with my family, and I caught up with some of my friends as well. I also did manage to get things done...but all of a sudden I just feel so overwhelmed. I don't know if it is because of school or what, but today it feels as if I am going to cry. There is something deep within me that is just trying to rip its way out of my body, and it is making its way up. My throat is constantly tight and every now and again my eyes will start watering. I am just waiting for the moment when I will not be able to swallow them down, and I will start bawling.
I don't even know why! School is stressful, of course, and I do miss my family. I can not wait for December so I can spend a month with them and especially Christmas. Plus soon we have to figure out roommates for next year...and there are two people I really want to room with because they are Christian and seem to be the types of people I would want to be around. Another girl and I got along really well at first, but lately she seems to be getting on my nerves more and more. She is agnostic -- but more atheist than anything -- and it is kind of hard. I am afraid to tell her I am searching for my faith in fear of what she will say! But I don't want to tell her I no longer want to be her roommate...what would she think of me then?
Everything is just so stressful lately. I am low on cash, yet I want to go have fun...but if I do have fun, I worry about money and also the time I am wasting by not doing homework! Things haven't piled on until now...but it seems too late. The tears will not be able to be held back soon, and I am afraid that once they come...they will never stop.
This weekend, everything just suddenly hit me. I went home because we had a three-day weekend, so I got to spend some much needed time with my family, and I caught up with some of my friends as well. I also did manage to get things done...but all of a sudden I just feel so overwhelmed. I don't know if it is because of school or what, but today it feels as if I am going to cry. There is something deep within me that is just trying to rip its way out of my body, and it is making its way up. My throat is constantly tight and every now and again my eyes will start watering. I am just waiting for the moment when I will not be able to swallow them down, and I will start bawling.
I don't even know why! School is stressful, of course, and I do miss my family. I can not wait for December so I can spend a month with them and especially Christmas. Plus soon we have to figure out roommates for next year...and there are two people I really want to room with because they are Christian and seem to be the types of people I would want to be around. Another girl and I got along really well at first, but lately she seems to be getting on my nerves more and more. She is agnostic -- but more atheist than anything -- and it is kind of hard. I am afraid to tell her I am searching for my faith in fear of what she will say! But I don't want to tell her I no longer want to be her roommate...what would she think of me then?
Everything is just so stressful lately. I am low on cash, yet I want to go have fun...but if I do have fun, I worry about money and also the time I am wasting by not doing homework! Things haven't piled on until now...but it seems too late. The tears will not be able to be held back soon, and I am afraid that once they come...they will never stop.
