Ahhh man i'm so upset today 
So I found a convo on my computer where my husband was talking to this random girl. Ok so I will admit there is not alot in the convo nor did it go for very long but it really hurt me.
Why? 1st reason is because of how he went about complementing her. It wasnt just a general compliment that there was convosation leading up to it... it was a random out of the blue and over the top compliment that you don't just give ppl you hardly know. 2nd reason is because i wasn't home at the time and the convo ended at the time that I got home.... and he ended it with 'i've gota go, i'm meeting a friend'.
It's like i'm a no one. Completely unimportant... and he's trying to hide the fact that he is married... not to mention that i'm pregnant with our first baby.
I feel so hurt and so angry. I don't even feel jealous actually. Just hurt and angry... yes my actions since could be one of jealousy but i don't feel that way at all. He is my husband... he's meant to give me the over the top and random compliments. I'm not saying that I don't want him ever talking to another girl or complimenting another girl - but all within context. Talking on msn when i'm not home is different from 'I'm just going for a coffee with 'insert name here'... or chatting at church or whatever.
Another reason i feel so hurt is because right now i feel so unattractive and it's only going to get worse... i'm only 15weeks pregnant so i'm just starting to get a bit bigger and some of my clothes aren't starting to fit... and putting on weight is my biggest phobia. in a way i want to do it - but i'll always hate it... and i'm trying so hard to eat lots so that the baby will b healthy. somedays i have to force myself to eat more than i feel like. i'm so worried that he won't find me attractive anymore because yes i will prolly look alot different during the pregnancy and after... and this just makes it feel so much more like that's going to happen. *sigh*
Neway i sent him msgs at work and he apologised but it still hurts.
So I found a convo on my computer where my husband was talking to this random girl. Ok so I will admit there is not alot in the convo nor did it go for very long but it really hurt me.
Why? 1st reason is because of how he went about complementing her. It wasnt just a general compliment that there was convosation leading up to it... it was a random out of the blue and over the top compliment that you don't just give ppl you hardly know. 2nd reason is because i wasn't home at the time and the convo ended at the time that I got home.... and he ended it with 'i've gota go, i'm meeting a friend'.
It's like i'm a no one. Completely unimportant... and he's trying to hide the fact that he is married... not to mention that i'm pregnant with our first baby.
I feel so hurt and so angry. I don't even feel jealous actually. Just hurt and angry... yes my actions since could be one of jealousy but i don't feel that way at all. He is my husband... he's meant to give me the over the top and random compliments. I'm not saying that I don't want him ever talking to another girl or complimenting another girl - but all within context. Talking on msn when i'm not home is different from 'I'm just going for a coffee with 'insert name here'... or chatting at church or whatever.
Another reason i feel so hurt is because right now i feel so unattractive and it's only going to get worse... i'm only 15weeks pregnant so i'm just starting to get a bit bigger and some of my clothes aren't starting to fit... and putting on weight is my biggest phobia. in a way i want to do it - but i'll always hate it... and i'm trying so hard to eat lots so that the baby will b healthy. somedays i have to force myself to eat more than i feel like. i'm so worried that he won't find me attractive anymore because yes i will prolly look alot different during the pregnancy and after... and this just makes it feel so much more like that's going to happen. *sigh*
Neway i sent him msgs at work and he apologised but it still hurts.
