today

Hi God

so its been a rough week
ups and downs

some things hurt
some things have brought joy

have cried a lot with you God
and laughed with your people too

its hurts God that he is gone and that you alone know how that feels and is for me

it hurts that a person here who i thought might bring a bit of comfort hasnt - i know they are very busy but it hurts too. others have though as you know and they have prayed too its weird when one person ends up mattering more than many, God please help me not to put so much on that one person

but God you overrule all things too
and God you know my faults and failings.. even tonight God i have failed you

God i dont tend to ask why much anymore about stuff thats happens

i wish i went to you more all the time, that i had a better relationship with you
it was a late night last night God
and i am tired so i better go now
thank you for listening and being who You are

your wayward child