There Really Are No Rules...

Out of nowhere , the guy I was supposed to go on a date with texted me out of no where.

He explained he was very busy and not with other people like I assumed...

He was very sweet saying that he sees something in me that he's attracted to, that he wants to see if it can work..

HOWEVER!!!

I'm still on guard after what happened with my friend... Because that was scary...and its just like there aren't any rules to seeing who is crazy and who isn't...like my friend you could know them for a long time ...and they just suddenly snap...

Or you can know someone for a short period of time and they end up being everything you needed...

But I'm so guarded... Like.. I hate I made that dating acc. Because I just want to be alone now... I want to recoil and be a hermit as I don't have good discernment....

Like I can't even be fully happy bc I'm thinking what if he snaps down the line ? Or changes suddenly? But then I wonder if he could be a nice person. I'm... And I don't want to gamble..just want to be alone.

Its funny when I want something with all my heart I don't get it...and when I don't want i5.it comes to my doorstep.

God is funny lol