Brokenness...brokenness...it's what I long for...
I heard a song not too long ago where the singer implied that they longed for brokenness. And I thought back to a blog I wrote called the stupid prayer where I prayed to God take my world apart. Maybe you, faithful reader, saw that particular writing. It was my first I think.
And last night as I laid my head down and tried to get to sleep, I actually pondered the thought of being broken. Not just the idea of it, but actually longing for it. What a stupid thought, right? As if my life, my situation wasn't broken enough. God, reach down and break it up even more!!
But then I thought about it even more and decided that I was going about it all wrong. You see, it's the world that says, "seek happiness" but happiness doesn't come from ANYTHING other than God. We try to bring happiness into our life with circumstances and people and things. But we know full and well we can have the whole world and still be sad and depressed.
The bible says that happiness is one of the fruits of the Spirit, so that tells me in order to have true, undiluted happiness, it must be something that comes from having the Spirit work in your life. Everything else is just temporary. Yes, I would be happy if I had a Silverado truck, but won't that truck eventually rust and fall apart? Yes I would be happy with a large book deal and contract, with lots of money. But does that happiness go away with time? It sure does. I would love to have all kinds of things and sure they would make me happy, but it's not true, real happiness.
It all goes back to being broken. You see, when you're broken, it means God is working in your life. It means that God is closest to you. Because when you're down and in the ditch, when you lack any strength to get up on your own, that's when God's strength kicks in. In Jeremiah, it states that the heart is exceedingly wicked and deceives us. So how can we trust that which is wicked? So maybe I've had it wrong all along. Don't live from your feelings or your heart because it's fiction. It's fake.
But brokenness isn't something to cry about! I have spent so much time complaining that I'm being broken all the time and that God keeps taking everything away from me, but I was soooo WRONG!! What have I really lost compared to what I gained? Throughout the bible I don't see God using people with a head on their shoulders and have life figured out. I see God using broken people living in broken situations. They are the stories that get written about and remember throughout history! True greatness is born out of being broken first and recognizing that ALL comes from God. True strength, true love, true wealth.
Being in the midst of brokenness says that God wants to use you. But first He has to mold you and break you away from what you were. We can never stay the same and be used by God. He does love us where we are, but He doesn't keep us there. And once God molds and changes...it hurts but we can rejoice in that true happiness we really long for.
I heard a song not too long ago where the singer implied that they longed for brokenness. And I thought back to a blog I wrote called the stupid prayer where I prayed to God take my world apart. Maybe you, faithful reader, saw that particular writing. It was my first I think.
And last night as I laid my head down and tried to get to sleep, I actually pondered the thought of being broken. Not just the idea of it, but actually longing for it. What a stupid thought, right? As if my life, my situation wasn't broken enough. God, reach down and break it up even more!!
But then I thought about it even more and decided that I was going about it all wrong. You see, it's the world that says, "seek happiness" but happiness doesn't come from ANYTHING other than God. We try to bring happiness into our life with circumstances and people and things. But we know full and well we can have the whole world and still be sad and depressed.
The bible says that happiness is one of the fruits of the Spirit, so that tells me in order to have true, undiluted happiness, it must be something that comes from having the Spirit work in your life. Everything else is just temporary. Yes, I would be happy if I had a Silverado truck, but won't that truck eventually rust and fall apart? Yes I would be happy with a large book deal and contract, with lots of money. But does that happiness go away with time? It sure does. I would love to have all kinds of things and sure they would make me happy, but it's not true, real happiness.
It all goes back to being broken. You see, when you're broken, it means God is working in your life. It means that God is closest to you. Because when you're down and in the ditch, when you lack any strength to get up on your own, that's when God's strength kicks in. In Jeremiah, it states that the heart is exceedingly wicked and deceives us. So how can we trust that which is wicked? So maybe I've had it wrong all along. Don't live from your feelings or your heart because it's fiction. It's fake.
But brokenness isn't something to cry about! I have spent so much time complaining that I'm being broken all the time and that God keeps taking everything away from me, but I was soooo WRONG!! What have I really lost compared to what I gained? Throughout the bible I don't see God using people with a head on their shoulders and have life figured out. I see God using broken people living in broken situations. They are the stories that get written about and remember throughout history! True greatness is born out of being broken first and recognizing that ALL comes from God. True strength, true love, true wealth.
Being in the midst of brokenness says that God wants to use you. But first He has to mold you and break you away from what you were. We can never stay the same and be used by God. He does love us where we are, but He doesn't keep us there. And once God molds and changes...it hurts but we can rejoice in that true happiness we really long for.
