*The life*

Call me naive, but I certainly didnt think that my life would turn out like this.
On one hand I have the most amazing fairytale life. I met my soulmate who exceeds any standard I ever had for a guy, and we have a beautiful 2 year old daughter who is just the joy in our life. we have the nice house and cars and big yard....ya know *picture perfect*

AND THEN THERE IS MY BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER!!!!~

I dont know who I am....when Im not chasing after mommy and daddys attention. I learned to manipulate very early on because of my fear of abandonment....MY MOODS ARE INSANE!!! I Feel SO intensley....Im PARANOID...IRRITABLE.....LOW PATIENCE....

I HATE this!!! Why me? What the hell did i do to deserve this?

God and I are on terms....maybe not the best terms. I suck at this christianity thing. I read my bible everyday....and do my devotions...and Im just STUCK....in everything. Alot of ppl think that Im DRAMATIC...but I swear... i FEEL all of this so intensely!!

It would be nice to know that Im not the only one out there with this disorder....and maybe connect.

God bless

One love