The hardest thing about being a Christian, if you ask me, is just letting go of your life and giving it to God. Singing "Jesus take the wheel" and actually mean it. But, not just singing it, but actually taking your hands off the wheel and not cringe at all, KNOWING that God Has it in His.
I mean, when you pray, do you actually know God is there? Or deep down inside do you say, "God, IF you're there..."? When you're going through a rough patch financially, you may SAY with your mouth, "God has me in His hands," but inside your stomach is a knot the size of Kansas because you're so afraid of what might happen.
This isn't one of my usual blogs where I try have something encouraging to say or have a story of how I beat the odds. Right now I'm just in a patch where I need to give it all to God, because I can't even trust myself anymore to do the right thing. I will be making a lot of life changes in the next few weeks and months and I am so scared to jump because if I fail, if it doesn't work out, then I am facing being homeless.
But if I really trusted God to provide a safety net where He tells me to jump, then why am I so afraid to do so? Where is all this doubt coming from?
I mean, when you pray, do you actually know God is there? Or deep down inside do you say, "God, IF you're there..."? When you're going through a rough patch financially, you may SAY with your mouth, "God has me in His hands," but inside your stomach is a knot the size of Kansas because you're so afraid of what might happen.
This isn't one of my usual blogs where I try have something encouraging to say or have a story of how I beat the odds. Right now I'm just in a patch where I need to give it all to God, because I can't even trust myself anymore to do the right thing. I will be making a lot of life changes in the next few weeks and months and I am so scared to jump because if I fail, if it doesn't work out, then I am facing being homeless.
But if I really trusted God to provide a safety net where He tells me to jump, then why am I so afraid to do so? Where is all this doubt coming from?
