Ive been experimenting, and it helps. However, Im nothing of the image that I am showing the people. I am an introvert, shy and unassuming. Im simply willing to take a few chances to see what happens. I have far exceeded my interests. Im afraid Im not the person I pretend to be and cannot back up my suggested intentions. I certainly intend to fake it until I make it. Im just a scared child inside hoping for a dream..
Other peoples lives are none of my business, even if I need it to be. I have to wait and sit in the far corner; sitting, until Im called to the masters table. I do not sit at the masters table until I am called. Lowly is the safest position. Yet, what a burden of none impulse. I almost cannot do it. I have to jump and let the rest of the world see me.. make me the star. Im the king, Im the boss of the room.. Its me, all about me me me me!.. I love me more then anything on earth. ITs all about my mirror. My mirror and me. Im so addicted to me, its worse then those addicted to the bottle.
Man, conceded, manipulative and narcissistic.
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I have Gods permission to practice. However, some people believe I am much more then I am, they believe I am him that I have acted. I am just an actor on a stage. I never thought I could pull it off. And some have taken me seriously. They've taken it to far..
I am nowhere near the person I suggest I am. ITs all an acting job. I am extremely shy and scared. I am an introvert...
I am nowhere. I am nowhere man. Now I have to learn to be this nowhere man all the time with no ego. Not seeking attention. Im not there yet, Im working on it, Im getting better. Its "O" so hard.
I have to heal, deal , feel.
On my knees to God all day and part of the night.. To God I go. To God Im learning to trust.
Other peoples lives are none of my business, even if I need it to be. I have to wait and sit in the far corner; sitting, until Im called to the masters table. I do not sit at the masters table until I am called. Lowly is the safest position. Yet, what a burden of none impulse. I almost cannot do it. I have to jump and let the rest of the world see me.. make me the star. Im the king, Im the boss of the room.. Its me, all about me me me me!.. I love me more then anything on earth. ITs all about my mirror. My mirror and me. Im so addicted to me, its worse then those addicted to the bottle.
Man, conceded, manipulative and narcissistic.
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I have Gods permission to practice. However, some people believe I am much more then I am, they believe I am him that I have acted. I am just an actor on a stage. I never thought I could pull it off. And some have taken me seriously. They've taken it to far..
I am nowhere near the person I suggest I am. ITs all an acting job. I am extremely shy and scared. I am an introvert...
I am nowhere. I am nowhere man. Now I have to learn to be this nowhere man all the time with no ego. Not seeking attention. Im not there yet, Im working on it, Im getting better. Its "O" so hard.
I have to heal, deal , feel.
On my knees to God all day and part of the night.. To God I go. To God Im learning to trust.
