The child in me wants to speak..
Im not sure when that will happen.
The child in me has been waiting for me to grow up that I can take care of him.
I am taking over were my parents left off. They were demonic and tried to destroy him. They killed him,. murdered him. God is resurrecting him.
I am helping! I have big interests in him being well.
God is in control! I need to always be on my knees.
I was destroyed when I was young. It was gruesome. IT was complete.
This was done, as soon as possible; when my father left the house. My mother is responsible; she was a pure breaded sociopath; sadist.
I was not prepared, nor did I know what was about to hit!
My life expectancy was zero! and so is anyone else who goes through this level of psychological trauma!
Im 50 years old, and Im still alive to breath life back into this child. I mean God breaths life back into me and the child, He is in control.
I do not know what to think of this damaged area of my being! What will it be like to be healed up! Im not sure.
I have all these old memories of being healed; I was a boy!
As a man with no past! Im not sure what things will look like. Im not sure.
The more writing I do, the better things get. The more I open up about the past, the better! the more the inside comes outside, the better! The truth is good enough! and the truth most be outside, not held in!
Im in great pain and confusion!
I will never see the original family system again! Im not dying over it! Ive seen enough of them to last a life time. The old family system are demons, and proud of it, and will never change nor want to. They kill! its that simple. They work for satan! Its that simple.
I thought these people would help me, love me, cherish me. I was just a boy! They murdered me, and permanently abandon me!
I could not perform in school after the traumas, I could not react or interact with books.. I could do nothing. I was destroyed..
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The goal is ;
Art: to be able to get into it and feel safe doing so!
Relationships: get into them, and feel safe dealing with the ups and downs... and possible break ups...
These are two areas where the psych damage hits the most,
work issues, or activities and relationships, it destroys the ability to participate!
Im not sure when that will happen.
The child in me has been waiting for me to grow up that I can take care of him.
I am taking over were my parents left off. They were demonic and tried to destroy him. They killed him,. murdered him. God is resurrecting him.
I am helping! I have big interests in him being well.
God is in control! I need to always be on my knees.
I was destroyed when I was young. It was gruesome. IT was complete.
This was done, as soon as possible; when my father left the house. My mother is responsible; she was a pure breaded sociopath; sadist.
I was not prepared, nor did I know what was about to hit!
My life expectancy was zero! and so is anyone else who goes through this level of psychological trauma!
Im 50 years old, and Im still alive to breath life back into this child. I mean God breaths life back into me and the child, He is in control.
I do not know what to think of this damaged area of my being! What will it be like to be healed up! Im not sure.
I have all these old memories of being healed; I was a boy!
As a man with no past! Im not sure what things will look like. Im not sure.
The more writing I do, the better things get. The more I open up about the past, the better! the more the inside comes outside, the better! The truth is good enough! and the truth most be outside, not held in!
Im in great pain and confusion!
I will never see the original family system again! Im not dying over it! Ive seen enough of them to last a life time. The old family system are demons, and proud of it, and will never change nor want to. They kill! its that simple. They work for satan! Its that simple.
I thought these people would help me, love me, cherish me. I was just a boy! They murdered me, and permanently abandon me!
I could not perform in school after the traumas, I could not react or interact with books.. I could do nothing. I was destroyed..
-----------
The goal is ;
Art: to be able to get into it and feel safe doing so!
Relationships: get into them, and feel safe dealing with the ups and downs... and possible break ups...
These are two areas where the psych damage hits the most,
work issues, or activities and relationships, it destroys the ability to participate!
