Two battles I thought I would never face when becoming a Christian are the two most prominent and dominant things I am facing day to day.
I feel I am at a complete battle with truth, not that I am fighting against the truth, rather against the lies and distortions regarding the truth, I see this whole world as back to front, I struggle to find a place in this crazy life, then always come back to realise that I will not ever truly settle here because I am not of this world, I know God has big plans for me, its not really what I had in mind, but I know it is far greater than I can imagine.
God has put it in my heart to seek his truth, the truth of his word, but the deeper I get into his truth, the more I realise how wrong Christianity is on its surface, not that Christianity is wrong in essence, but it has been lied about, mis-interpreted and many people have been mis-guided because of this.
I am at a constant battle with people who argue what I believe, but what they believe I believe is wrong, because they have been decieved, people ask how I can be right and so many be wrong, its just my opinion, but its not, its the word of God, but many people in this day dont know his word, not many know the real truth, they put their trust in someone else to guide them but really they lead them to a place of solitary, or a place with no power, and place where God becomes this tool that controls peoples lives to the point where they are nothing more than robots.
There is so many cruel and wicked systems set up in this day, many come wrapped in a nice little box called religion, its wrapped really neat, looks very presentable and pleasing to the eye, and the contents appears to nice sweet chocolates, eat this one and it will solve this problem, people keep eating and eating until they all of a sudden realise they have got fat, its made them sick, and they find themselves stuck, religion is a masterful trick of deceit, and is probably one of the greatest tricks I have seen to control people rather than set them free then I have even seen in anything else, and it is also the most distructive.
The best lies are the ones with the most ammount of truth in them, if you have say 99% truth, and then just 1% lie, this 1 percent cant polute the whole 99% of goodness if it is rooted deap enough, this is what I have noticed with religions, God is not the the God of religion, nor does any religious practice lead to God or salvation, the very act of a religious practice that is motivated by a system of action and robotic thought is a completely dead work in the eyes of God, because God wants to change our heart, religion has the trick of changing peoples minds rather than heart, as to make them believe they are rightious and good in the eyes of God, when in actuality they are self rightious and performing dead works.
It really does anger me when I read the bible more and more I see a pattern, man turns God into religion, just as we are warned in the new testament by Jesus himself that the so called teachers of that day were on the outside as white washed tombs, but on this inside full of dead mans bones, they had turned living for God and having a relationship with him, into a religious self rightious system, and because of this they did neither know God, nor love God, people in this day are following the exact same pattern, that leads to the exact same destination, a place where in their own mind they are close to God, but in reality they are a million miles away from him, it has to be the greatest trick ever played to mankind and still many keep falling into this trap, it both sadens, and angers me.
God has put something in my heart that is so powerful I cannot describe what it is, this hunger I have for God and his truth is so powerful yet at the same time so weak, because it breaks my heart to see and speak to so many people who think they know God, or just dont believe in God, or have formed their own God in their own mind, fashioned to their own sinful ways and ideas, it really does sadden me to see the hardness of peoples hearts, God has given me ability to see this, and the more I look for this the easier it is to spot, and the more upsetting it is to see this, it hurts me to see people struggling in various areas, and in desperate need for the healing of God, yet still go through life without even giving it a thought.
I know God is the only one who can change peoples hearts, and it is such a blessing to see this happen, it is the greatest thing to witness in this life, to see a person go from a pure hardened heart, fashioned and conditioned to this world, to a full healing and see God pour himself into them, it stirs something in me so pleasent that I wish to see this happen to everyone.
But then to know that their are some people that will just never give it a hearing, because there are so many lies about Christianity they choose to believe the lie, but I know God desires all to be saved so they will have the chance many times in this life, but it hurts to know some people will not experience the amazing power of God.
My life has become a life of sorrows, I thought Christ would lead to happiness, I know eventually all things will work out and I will be led to this place of peace in the kingdom of God, and that things here and now and minnute compared to the kingdom of heaven, but I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness towards so many things, and the more truth I learn, the greater the sadness becomes, because God is lied about constantly everyday, people curse his name every day, people deny him every day, people just take for granted everything he has done and is doing, people mock him, slander him, say so many things against him when they do not know him, yet he still gracious to let them continue, and even still try and lead these people to salvation.
He has done everything for us and we are still not happy, or would rather just keep sinning against him every day, just about everything I hear and read this day insults God or Christ, but then I know this is bound to happen as Christ said his kingdom is not of this world, so it will be mocked until his Kingdom comes, I wait with great anticipation, God please continue to work through me, give me strength at this time, to be a true witness to you, the most important things as a Christian I believe, is that we represent God and Christ in the right light, I know this path I have chosen to take is going to be difficult, I wont settle for half truths, God has put it in my heart to not be how the world wants me to be nor my family wants me to be, God has put it in my heart to fight for his truth and his word, and to test every person that claims to be of him with his word, to be blunt with people who represent him in a false light, and to fear nothing but God, and always being motivated by love and what I know to be 100% truth, I know because of this path I have chosen to follow I will make many enemies, and many of them will claim to be of the very truth I am of, they will hate me just as they hated him, for no reason other than the fact that he just told them the truth, the pattern we are living in this day is the same as the pattern when Christ came, the time is near, may his Kingdom come, this is my greatest hope in this world, I will continue to fight the good fight.
I feel I am at a complete battle with truth, not that I am fighting against the truth, rather against the lies and distortions regarding the truth, I see this whole world as back to front, I struggle to find a place in this crazy life, then always come back to realise that I will not ever truly settle here because I am not of this world, I know God has big plans for me, its not really what I had in mind, but I know it is far greater than I can imagine.
God has put it in my heart to seek his truth, the truth of his word, but the deeper I get into his truth, the more I realise how wrong Christianity is on its surface, not that Christianity is wrong in essence, but it has been lied about, mis-interpreted and many people have been mis-guided because of this.
I am at a constant battle with people who argue what I believe, but what they believe I believe is wrong, because they have been decieved, people ask how I can be right and so many be wrong, its just my opinion, but its not, its the word of God, but many people in this day dont know his word, not many know the real truth, they put their trust in someone else to guide them but really they lead them to a place of solitary, or a place with no power, and place where God becomes this tool that controls peoples lives to the point where they are nothing more than robots.
There is so many cruel and wicked systems set up in this day, many come wrapped in a nice little box called religion, its wrapped really neat, looks very presentable and pleasing to the eye, and the contents appears to nice sweet chocolates, eat this one and it will solve this problem, people keep eating and eating until they all of a sudden realise they have got fat, its made them sick, and they find themselves stuck, religion is a masterful trick of deceit, and is probably one of the greatest tricks I have seen to control people rather than set them free then I have even seen in anything else, and it is also the most distructive.
The best lies are the ones with the most ammount of truth in them, if you have say 99% truth, and then just 1% lie, this 1 percent cant polute the whole 99% of goodness if it is rooted deap enough, this is what I have noticed with religions, God is not the the God of religion, nor does any religious practice lead to God or salvation, the very act of a religious practice that is motivated by a system of action and robotic thought is a completely dead work in the eyes of God, because God wants to change our heart, religion has the trick of changing peoples minds rather than heart, as to make them believe they are rightious and good in the eyes of God, when in actuality they are self rightious and performing dead works.
It really does anger me when I read the bible more and more I see a pattern, man turns God into religion, just as we are warned in the new testament by Jesus himself that the so called teachers of that day were on the outside as white washed tombs, but on this inside full of dead mans bones, they had turned living for God and having a relationship with him, into a religious self rightious system, and because of this they did neither know God, nor love God, people in this day are following the exact same pattern, that leads to the exact same destination, a place where in their own mind they are close to God, but in reality they are a million miles away from him, it has to be the greatest trick ever played to mankind and still many keep falling into this trap, it both sadens, and angers me.
God has put something in my heart that is so powerful I cannot describe what it is, this hunger I have for God and his truth is so powerful yet at the same time so weak, because it breaks my heart to see and speak to so many people who think they know God, or just dont believe in God, or have formed their own God in their own mind, fashioned to their own sinful ways and ideas, it really does sadden me to see the hardness of peoples hearts, God has given me ability to see this, and the more I look for this the easier it is to spot, and the more upsetting it is to see this, it hurts me to see people struggling in various areas, and in desperate need for the healing of God, yet still go through life without even giving it a thought.
I know God is the only one who can change peoples hearts, and it is such a blessing to see this happen, it is the greatest thing to witness in this life, to see a person go from a pure hardened heart, fashioned and conditioned to this world, to a full healing and see God pour himself into them, it stirs something in me so pleasent that I wish to see this happen to everyone.
But then to know that their are some people that will just never give it a hearing, because there are so many lies about Christianity they choose to believe the lie, but I know God desires all to be saved so they will have the chance many times in this life, but it hurts to know some people will not experience the amazing power of God.
My life has become a life of sorrows, I thought Christ would lead to happiness, I know eventually all things will work out and I will be led to this place of peace in the kingdom of God, and that things here and now and minnute compared to the kingdom of heaven, but I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness towards so many things, and the more truth I learn, the greater the sadness becomes, because God is lied about constantly everyday, people curse his name every day, people deny him every day, people just take for granted everything he has done and is doing, people mock him, slander him, say so many things against him when they do not know him, yet he still gracious to let them continue, and even still try and lead these people to salvation.
He has done everything for us and we are still not happy, or would rather just keep sinning against him every day, just about everything I hear and read this day insults God or Christ, but then I know this is bound to happen as Christ said his kingdom is not of this world, so it will be mocked until his Kingdom comes, I wait with great anticipation, God please continue to work through me, give me strength at this time, to be a true witness to you, the most important things as a Christian I believe, is that we represent God and Christ in the right light, I know this path I have chosen to take is going to be difficult, I wont settle for half truths, God has put it in my heart to not be how the world wants me to be nor my family wants me to be, God has put it in my heart to fight for his truth and his word, and to test every person that claims to be of him with his word, to be blunt with people who represent him in a false light, and to fear nothing but God, and always being motivated by love and what I know to be 100% truth, I know because of this path I have chosen to follow I will make many enemies, and many of them will claim to be of the very truth I am of, they will hate me just as they hated him, for no reason other than the fact that he just told them the truth, the pattern we are living in this day is the same as the pattern when Christ came, the time is near, may his Kingdom come, this is my greatest hope in this world, I will continue to fight the good fight.
