I have to trust God, I have gone as far as I can with the groups Im in.
Ive dealt with addiction problems; I was attempting to medicate the PTSD long term problems, and the full Dissociative Disorder!
I have gone as far as I can in these groups.
Tonight I began to talk about the anxiety problems in more detail; that because of my past abuse, no one can come into my three foot permitter. Or if they do, I will pull away from them, I cannot control it. This is much better then it used to be. However, I talked about social relationship interactions, nothing about addiction. Im getting to the point that my time in these meetings is limited.
As for social interaction; Ive been permanently damaged, and no amount of practice will fix this.
I am weak when it comes to interactions, I cannot stay present! Its very hard to let anyone in, and most do not understand.
My church accounts God for the changes in my life, however, they do not want to here about PTSD/ avoidance personality disorder, agoraphobia, clinical depression I had from the past, or full Dissociative Disorder!
The church people like me and see the changes, However, they are making up there own story to fit me instead of accepting the truth; my story! its all very weird and stupid and strange.
Im not sure where I go from here!
I cannot practice relationship stuff at the meetings Im presently attending.
I will have to trust God, and talk to God about it, About my directions
Ive dealt with addiction problems; I was attempting to medicate the PTSD long term problems, and the full Dissociative Disorder!
I have gone as far as I can in these groups.
Tonight I began to talk about the anxiety problems in more detail; that because of my past abuse, no one can come into my three foot permitter. Or if they do, I will pull away from them, I cannot control it. This is much better then it used to be. However, I talked about social relationship interactions, nothing about addiction. Im getting to the point that my time in these meetings is limited.
As for social interaction; Ive been permanently damaged, and no amount of practice will fix this.
I am weak when it comes to interactions, I cannot stay present! Its very hard to let anyone in, and most do not understand.
My church accounts God for the changes in my life, however, they do not want to here about PTSD/ avoidance personality disorder, agoraphobia, clinical depression I had from the past, or full Dissociative Disorder!
The church people like me and see the changes, However, they are making up there own story to fit me instead of accepting the truth; my story! its all very weird and stupid and strange.
Im not sure where I go from here!
I cannot practice relationship stuff at the meetings Im presently attending.
I will have to trust God, and talk to God about it, About my directions
