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Temptation is a whip that has lashed me of late. Sin wields it and has a desire to conquer me. I have been running for so long, but time and again I get stung and I am brought down, naked and bleeding and all hollowed out again.
Naked because there is no hiding who and what I really am.
Bleeding because my heart is torn by my betrayal.
Hollowed because there lies only the shell of my wanting to be faithful to my LORD.... but the substance is lost.
I cried out and cried out and I asked my LORD what must I do to be rid of this temptation? How have you made a way out for me, like you've said? And the thought came to me that I might reject my desires and my own needs to be free of this hated pursecution. But I asked the thought as a question, of my LORD, and did not see it as a command and I continued on living a slave to sin and receiving the dreadful lash of the whip apon my poor flesh.
But finally I've had enough and I see the command for what it is. My LORD said, "If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell."
Please, LORD, forgive me for my selfishness and looking only to my own desires. I need the peace that you bring, and I need the sweetness of YOU more than I need this foul deed after which I have been craving. I surrender my needs. If I should live out the rest of my life and they should never be fulfilled I will accept that. I surrender myself into your hands, as your servant that you may do with me as you will.
Please, LORD, have mercy on me.
Naked because there is no hiding who and what I really am.
Bleeding because my heart is torn by my betrayal.
Hollowed because there lies only the shell of my wanting to be faithful to my LORD.... but the substance is lost.
I cried out and cried out and I asked my LORD what must I do to be rid of this temptation? How have you made a way out for me, like you've said? And the thought came to me that I might reject my desires and my own needs to be free of this hated pursecution. But I asked the thought as a question, of my LORD, and did not see it as a command and I continued on living a slave to sin and receiving the dreadful lash of the whip apon my poor flesh.
But finally I've had enough and I see the command for what it is. My LORD said, "If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell."
Please, LORD, forgive me for my selfishness and looking only to my own desires. I need the peace that you bring, and I need the sweetness of YOU more than I need this foul deed after which I have been craving. I surrender my needs. If I should live out the rest of my life and they should never be fulfilled I will accept that. I surrender myself into your hands, as your servant that you may do with me as you will.
Please, LORD, have mercy on me.
