I want to be able to surrender everything to Christ. Just when I think I have done it, or when I think I am doing great, something happens that reminds me once again what a fallen human I am. Without the love of Christ, I would be nothing.
Surrendering is hard in some areas for me. I think one of the hardest is trusting Him. To believe that He can do anything, to believe that He will do what it is that is best. Yet with all my heart I desire to follow Him.
Even if that means that none will go with me. So far it seems that Christ has for me a road that is walked alone, although not without Him. I seek to understand the confusion that comes from not having that certain someone to love me.
I am greatful and blessed that God has saved me from all my past relationships, but also wonder what He has in store for me.
My outmost frustration comes from men and how they start with interest and then it fades as soon as you start being interested. Or the ones who you are not interested in, won't go away no matter how hard you try to get them away from you.
I want to continue to surrender this even more. I know I am rambling and things might not make sense in this blog. All I want to say is that it is worth it to surrender. In the arms of Christ is the best place to be and there is peace and contentment there. Not always freedom from tears or frustration, but I know that Christ never lets go. Never. Not even when our human minds think that He has let go or that He doesn't care.
He never stops loving, never stops caring, never stops chasing.
Surrendering is hard in some areas for me. I think one of the hardest is trusting Him. To believe that He can do anything, to believe that He will do what it is that is best. Yet with all my heart I desire to follow Him.
Even if that means that none will go with me. So far it seems that Christ has for me a road that is walked alone, although not without Him. I seek to understand the confusion that comes from not having that certain someone to love me.
I am greatful and blessed that God has saved me from all my past relationships, but also wonder what He has in store for me.
My outmost frustration comes from men and how they start with interest and then it fades as soon as you start being interested. Or the ones who you are not interested in, won't go away no matter how hard you try to get them away from you.
I want to continue to surrender this even more. I know I am rambling and things might not make sense in this blog. All I want to say is that it is worth it to surrender. In the arms of Christ is the best place to be and there is peace and contentment there. Not always freedom from tears or frustration, but I know that Christ never lets go. Never. Not even when our human minds think that He has let go or that He doesn't care.
He never stops loving, never stops caring, never stops chasing.
