struggling with my eating disorder

I am new to this site. I am hoping to find someone who can identify with my struggle that I have with my eating disorder. I don't want to go into too much detail now, but I have been struggling with disordered eating for most of my life. I have binged, purged, starved, over exercised. I have been in therapy for years with a secular doctor. I am starting to realize and accept that my eating disorder is a spiritual battle that I am losing fast. I feel so distant from God. I need to see my doctor because she handles my medications. But I feel that I really also need to talk to someone who can guide me spiritually. I want to start with a Christian forum and see how things go. Just wanted to put my toe in the water here. Thanks for listening.