I don't know if Im posting in the right place I don't know how to use this website I just need some help. I'm 19. I used to be very creative. For about 3 years I was a drug addict. I got heavily into shrooms and found God during a trip. but I didn't stop the drugs until one day I mixed the shrooms with my Prozac and destroyed myself. Now i'm not creative at all. Not only that but Im not the person I used to be. Now i'm an anxious, emotionless wreck. I don't feel forgiven but then again why should I? Look what I've done to myself. What use am I to God now?