from old blog January 18, 2008
Father, it's a few short hours before the surgery. I really haven't given it much thought other than I just want it done. I've been nauseated for four and a half years. My prayer is that this will be the end of that. The last couple months have been really bad. So many days of nausea and low pulse and swelling legs and incredible weakness. So tired all the time. I'm not here to complain, Lord. You've been so good to me through this! You gave me a computer and a ministry. I pray constantly I don't let you down or lead souls the wrong way. I know with knowledge comes huge responsibility. I am so honored you've trusted me so much. If I hadn't had this time at CF the last few months I think I'd be a total nut case.
So, I touched bases with Karla and Sam and Novalee cut my hair and blew the shofar over me. I cleaned house off and on as best I could today. Had things to do here, also.
Father I know there are two ways this surgery can go. I'm really tired, Lord. I pray it is the simple one day in and out. I've missed so much of the last six months. I'm ready to live life again. Father, which ever way you choose I know I'll be o.k. I know my beloved brother, Jesus, will be there with me. He always is. I thank you so much for that!
Father you know my heart and what is hurting it so hard right now. Help me with that, Father. I just can't take it any more. I just don't understand why. Well, that's not exactly true. I understand part of it. I understand you're calling me forward. It's just hard and I am weak. I trust you, Father. I know whatever the outcome, you have a reason and it is for my good. Bless you, Father.
Dear Jesus,
Thank you so much for making this life I have mean something. It wouldn't mean anything, it is so insignificant, if you were not the reason.
I love you, Jesus
Bless you, Jesus
Thank you, Jesus
for I am nothing if not for you
Father, it's a few short hours before the surgery. I really haven't given it much thought other than I just want it done. I've been nauseated for four and a half years. My prayer is that this will be the end of that. The last couple months have been really bad. So many days of nausea and low pulse and swelling legs and incredible weakness. So tired all the time. I'm not here to complain, Lord. You've been so good to me through this! You gave me a computer and a ministry. I pray constantly I don't let you down or lead souls the wrong way. I know with knowledge comes huge responsibility. I am so honored you've trusted me so much. If I hadn't had this time at CF the last few months I think I'd be a total nut case.
So, I touched bases with Karla and Sam and Novalee cut my hair and blew the shofar over me. I cleaned house off and on as best I could today. Had things to do here, also.
Father I know there are two ways this surgery can go. I'm really tired, Lord. I pray it is the simple one day in and out. I've missed so much of the last six months. I'm ready to live life again. Father, which ever way you choose I know I'll be o.k. I know my beloved brother, Jesus, will be there with me. He always is. I thank you so much for that!
Father you know my heart and what is hurting it so hard right now. Help me with that, Father. I just can't take it any more. I just don't understand why. Well, that's not exactly true. I understand part of it. I understand you're calling me forward. It's just hard and I am weak. I trust you, Father. I know whatever the outcome, you have a reason and it is for my good. Bless you, Father.
Dear Jesus,
Thank you so much for making this life I have mean something. It wouldn't mean anything, it is so insignificant, if you were not the reason.
I love you, Jesus
Bless you, Jesus
Thank you, Jesus
for I am nothing if not for you
