I've been praying about it. Im without understanding...
I cant go forward with this women because of my baggage.. that hurts to say this!.. Its about being bullied when I was younger, made a fool out of, a laughing stock, then thrown away.. No family.. They betrayed me and never returned. I went into shock and never came out.
Im mad at the girls in the world and everyone else for not trying to understand. People have problems, Why cant they have a bit of conscious towards other people.
People are treated like test tubes.. Why cant people ask questions and show some dignity towards others.. towards themselves, instead of acting like mindless animals.
I've been humiliated by other people much of my life. Its been a giant war. Im slowly coming out from hiding.. Now what?
Im scared. I must rely on God. ALl of the memories I have of my past were bad. Nothing was real.. I was loved by no one... It was all false with no where to run or hide. I had no one, and I had no place to go to escape.
Its hard to deal with my past, my baggage and the person in front of me that likes me that has baggage. Its all to much.. I don't like or want to be manipulated.
I cant stand people that have it going on!.. I want to break them to little pieces..
I have to trust God. Work with God.. God must come first before the relationships..
I hate it when he says no! I want to tell him to jump in a lake, he is wrong, I am right, its my happiness. Why cant I have the candy I desire. I would be happy with that candy.. I want candy.... I want my candy.. Im going to have to trust God... Not give up..
I cant go forward with this women because of my baggage.. that hurts to say this!.. Its about being bullied when I was younger, made a fool out of, a laughing stock, then thrown away.. No family.. They betrayed me and never returned. I went into shock and never came out.
Im mad at the girls in the world and everyone else for not trying to understand. People have problems, Why cant they have a bit of conscious towards other people.
People are treated like test tubes.. Why cant people ask questions and show some dignity towards others.. towards themselves, instead of acting like mindless animals.
I've been humiliated by other people much of my life. Its been a giant war. Im slowly coming out from hiding.. Now what?
Im scared. I must rely on God. ALl of the memories I have of my past were bad. Nothing was real.. I was loved by no one... It was all false with no where to run or hide. I had no one, and I had no place to go to escape.
Its hard to deal with my past, my baggage and the person in front of me that likes me that has baggage. Its all to much.. I don't like or want to be manipulated.
I cant stand people that have it going on!.. I want to break them to little pieces..
I have to trust God. Work with God.. God must come first before the relationships..
I hate it when he says no! I want to tell him to jump in a lake, he is wrong, I am right, its my happiness. Why cant I have the candy I desire. I would be happy with that candy.. I want candy.... I want my candy.. Im going to have to trust God... Not give up..
