So tense that I want to run, but I cant because it is to late at night. Ever since I panicked at Life Church whenever I am on edge or tense I want to run or atleast walk fast. It doesnt matter where I go, just being on the move is important. My life sucks, it honestly does. I hate being like this, hate myself, I wish I could change but i can't. I can for a few months but the effort soon becomes to much and I revert back to myself. sigh. Dont know what to do anymore.