Okay so I am openly willing to admit my faults. One of them is that I have to exert a high amount of self-control to keep myself in check in regards to my anger.
Today I only flew off the handle once because I dropped a paper towel on the floor and my mom asked me what was wrong. (Ridiculous, I know.)
It actually causes me much grief because I feel frustrated by how reactive I am to seemingly benign situations. I think it has something to do with all of the negative emotion that is festering underneath the surface of my awareness.
My issue is that I have PTSD and getting through ALL of the trauma is going to take a LONG time. I have a therapist, and I take medication but it's a struggle.
I am determined to live my life to honor God to my best ability. That is why my sin and anger makes me even more frustrated and sad.
This is more of a vent than a blog, but I just needed to get it out.
Today I only flew off the handle once because I dropped a paper towel on the floor and my mom asked me what was wrong. (Ridiculous, I know.)
It actually causes me much grief because I feel frustrated by how reactive I am to seemingly benign situations. I think it has something to do with all of the negative emotion that is festering underneath the surface of my awareness.
My issue is that I have PTSD and getting through ALL of the trauma is going to take a LONG time. I have a therapist, and I take medication but it's a struggle.
I am determined to live my life to honor God to my best ability. That is why my sin and anger makes me even more frustrated and sad.
This is more of a vent than a blog, but I just needed to get it out.
