This is a summer of seeking. A continuous search for God's will in my life. I am told that God's will is plain for us to see if we are walking with Him in truth. If that is the case, then perhaps something is wrong and I don't even realize it. At times I feel like I am hitting a wall in the search for God's will for my life. I want to walk close with Him but I seem to keep on falling, keep on being left in the dark.
I can't describe how I feel. I want to know the Lord and I fail to understand how to reach out and grab life fully in Him.
There are a few desires in me that aren't wrong, but I feel I am giving them too much reign over my emotions and too much time.
I struggle though with this thought: if I am not walking blameless in EVERY aspect of my life, if I keep on stumbling, will God not lead me? Will He not show me His will if I do not overcome my weaknesses? How do I then seek Him and find Him if I fight these things in my life? And how then shall I rid myself of these things that seem so small, and yet must be so big to God.
I sometimes feel so trapped, like I can't reach what I should in life that will be God's will for me-that I can't live fully in Him because of the things that tie me down.
I want to be totally reliant on God. Sometimes I feel like I am doing fine, that I am doing my best to walk with Him...and then I start to wonder what is keeping me away from Him. What am I doing that isn't right? We can do nothing apart from Him. We must remain in Him.
Seeking God isn't supposed to be hard so what am I missing?
I can't describe how I feel. I want to know the Lord and I fail to understand how to reach out and grab life fully in Him.
There are a few desires in me that aren't wrong, but I feel I am giving them too much reign over my emotions and too much time.
I struggle though with this thought: if I am not walking blameless in EVERY aspect of my life, if I keep on stumbling, will God not lead me? Will He not show me His will if I do not overcome my weaknesses? How do I then seek Him and find Him if I fight these things in my life? And how then shall I rid myself of these things that seem so small, and yet must be so big to God.
I sometimes feel so trapped, like I can't reach what I should in life that will be God's will for me-that I can't live fully in Him because of the things that tie me down.
I want to be totally reliant on God. Sometimes I feel like I am doing fine, that I am doing my best to walk with Him...and then I start to wonder what is keeping me away from Him. What am I doing that isn't right? We can do nothing apart from Him. We must remain in Him.
Seeking God isn't supposed to be hard so what am I missing?
