sad

I am so hurt and angry by my husband. I can't handle any thing short of genuineness and won't accept anything less. I am pushing away his half hearted attempts and accept that it very well is likely to lead to divorce which I'm ok with because at this point I just don't want to hurt anymore. I feel bad because I know that he might not understand and that maybe it hurts him. I think of the times sitting and listening to music with him and it hurts to to splitting up. But then I remember that he's not like he used to be and is likely to never be again. I can't be a doormat for him to trample anymore for the sake of sparing his feelings. He either needs to understand or we have no hope because I've been hurt too badly to put up with him.