Im back in the harder 12 step groups. Its keeping me awake. Its hard. I have no social life, and this is a false social life. No one is really interested in me. Im in a group of people. They are not interested in hanging out with me.
Lots of people, lots of shallow talk and walk. Im not complaining. Im telling the truth. The people are deep, Im not invited into there lives. ITs part of the protective quality of a formal meeting. You say hello, sit down, might laugh with someone, listen or participate in the meeting, then go home.
I have no friends at these meetings expect when Im in the meetings. No one is interested in hanging out with me.
Im a victim. That does not help.
Lots of people, lots of shallow talk and walk. Im not complaining. Im telling the truth. The people are deep, Im not invited into there lives. ITs part of the protective quality of a formal meeting. You say hello, sit down, might laugh with someone, listen or participate in the meeting, then go home.
I have no friends at these meetings expect when Im in the meetings. No one is interested in hanging out with me.
Im a victim. That does not help.
