Romans 7- Getting Out Of This Body Of Sin

I definitely realize that I am a wretched man in need of saving. I see that. I have been a believer in Christ for 6 years now. But I have not fully come to the place to where I am like "OK, now it's time to fully surrender, because I cant do this on my own. I can't be righteous, I can't have true love for people and do good works without Christ... my only option is to completely die to self now.'' I don't know why I haven't gotten to that point yet. I have seen some people become a Christian and surrender and grow so quickly within a year or 2, and then other Christians that after 20+ years have barely grown spiritually at all. Jesus said only those who ACTUALLY do the will of the Father will go to heaven. I keep telling myself that I am ''trying to surrender'' but it's like day after day goes by and I still am not dying to self. What is wrong with me? Why is this taking so long? I know I have to die to myself. I hate this stubborn flesh and prideful ego of mine but I just cant get rid of it! ***sigh*** I'm sorry, I'm just rambling... I feel like my own worst enemy often.