Im seeing myself before I was destroyed. Im seeing the memories, much like a si fi movie real when showing the earth before the nuclear blast.
Im attempting to get better, that I connect again with the real me before I was destroyed. With the good memories are the bad ones, and this is going to be rough.. God brought me to this small town to gain recovery, understanding, and heal! And that is what Im doing!
I belong to no ones ideologies. I belong to mine and Gods.. I am a fierce independent. Yet, Im a artist. And I want to fit in! and be in the middle and not on the edge.. However, its not all about me!
I will never sleep knowing children are being destroyed in this society! and so many! thrown away that the upper clueless classes may live as they wish!
I am not premade for the acceptance of murder! forcing children to kill themselves is not God oriented...
I pray for Gods will, what he wants me to do. Most of the time I am not to run and save anyone. I am to set up a vigil for those dying and pray for them.. I am to be that one that notices, that is aware! that sees them in the end, even tho Im not with them physically! I am to speak for them, what good wonderful people they are or were and that it is not there fault they were born here on this planet! I am to speak for them to God! on there behalf.
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I am in a strange time right now, a very vulnerable time>
Many people do not want me to get better and move forward as I will leave them behind!
The goal is to bring the past and present together! this should be interesting.. and not to need the original players to go with it! I don't need them!
Im blocked by many people that do not want me to get better! or, Im ignored or written off!
In this small town I am of no reputation! Im lucky to be alive, and have a second chance at living.. However, I am looked at by others as nothing! Should be interesting when its time to start dating again!
I would like to get better, The PTSD problems, and move on to better people, places, and things...
Im attempting to get better, that I connect again with the real me before I was destroyed. With the good memories are the bad ones, and this is going to be rough.. God brought me to this small town to gain recovery, understanding, and heal! And that is what Im doing!
I belong to no ones ideologies. I belong to mine and Gods.. I am a fierce independent. Yet, Im a artist. And I want to fit in! and be in the middle and not on the edge.. However, its not all about me!
I will never sleep knowing children are being destroyed in this society! and so many! thrown away that the upper clueless classes may live as they wish!
I am not premade for the acceptance of murder! forcing children to kill themselves is not God oriented...
I pray for Gods will, what he wants me to do. Most of the time I am not to run and save anyone. I am to set up a vigil for those dying and pray for them.. I am to be that one that notices, that is aware! that sees them in the end, even tho Im not with them physically! I am to speak for them, what good wonderful people they are or were and that it is not there fault they were born here on this planet! I am to speak for them to God! on there behalf.
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I am in a strange time right now, a very vulnerable time>
Many people do not want me to get better and move forward as I will leave them behind!
The goal is to bring the past and present together! this should be interesting.. and not to need the original players to go with it! I don't need them!
Im blocked by many people that do not want me to get better! or, Im ignored or written off!
In this small town I am of no reputation! Im lucky to be alive, and have a second chance at living.. However, I am looked at by others as nothing! Should be interesting when its time to start dating again!
I would like to get better, The PTSD problems, and move on to better people, places, and things...
