Lord thank you for your infinite love and good deeds to men!
I have had such a battle the last few months, working through the setting captives free course, dealing with all my sexual issues, bitterness, hatred in my life. I felt like it was getting worse not better, I kept submitting to God and more stuff in my life would come up.
Recently I realised how much of a hate filled and bitter person I was.
My mind was filled with murderous thoughts toward my own family and friends. I had doubts toward God .. I was struggling every day, I had headaches, I couldn't focus at work, I felt absolutely wretched and terrible.
I kept reminding myself of scripture, I kept choosing to surrender to God, I kept reminding myself of his promises, my mentor at setting captives free kept reminding me that I need an absolute heart change from God. But the bitterness and pain got worse and worse, until this weekend just been, where I realised I had the capacity to hurt and kill my own family members!
I went out at lunchtime from work and fell on my back, sobbing and asking God for his mercy and to save me from the wretch that I was. And..
HE ACTUALLY CAME AND SAVED ME!!! WOW!! For the first time in my 29 years, (I'm about to turn 30).. I had a miraculous revelation that he has set me free from the power of sin and death!!
It was stunning.. I opened my eyes.. and everything looked different. My whole countenance changed, I was filled with joy and laughter and peace! Thank you God, you are amazing!
I immediately rung a few close mentors in my life and told them, I immediately spoke to my boss about it after lunch. I couldn't believe it.. God will actually come through for you and give you a new heart~ !
He is not kidding at all in Psalm 107:10-16! He actually rescues us when we are at our lowest points and gives us a new heart and a new spirit!!
Thank you God for your wonderful deeds to men, I was an absolute wretch, but you came and set me free for your glory!!
I have had such a battle the last few months, working through the setting captives free course, dealing with all my sexual issues, bitterness, hatred in my life. I felt like it was getting worse not better, I kept submitting to God and more stuff in my life would come up.
Recently I realised how much of a hate filled and bitter person I was.
My mind was filled with murderous thoughts toward my own family and friends. I had doubts toward God .. I was struggling every day, I had headaches, I couldn't focus at work, I felt absolutely wretched and terrible.
I kept reminding myself of scripture, I kept choosing to surrender to God, I kept reminding myself of his promises, my mentor at setting captives free kept reminding me that I need an absolute heart change from God. But the bitterness and pain got worse and worse, until this weekend just been, where I realised I had the capacity to hurt and kill my own family members!
I went out at lunchtime from work and fell on my back, sobbing and asking God for his mercy and to save me from the wretch that I was. And..
HE ACTUALLY CAME AND SAVED ME!!! WOW!! For the first time in my 29 years, (I'm about to turn 30).. I had a miraculous revelation that he has set me free from the power of sin and death!!
It was stunning.. I opened my eyes.. and everything looked different. My whole countenance changed, I was filled with joy and laughter and peace! Thank you God, you are amazing!
I immediately rung a few close mentors in my life and told them, I immediately spoke to my boss about it after lunch. I couldn't believe it.. God will actually come through for you and give you a new heart~ !
He is not kidding at all in Psalm 107:10-16! He actually rescues us when we are at our lowest points and gives us a new heart and a new spirit!!
Thank you God for your wonderful deeds to men, I was an absolute wretch, but you came and set me free for your glory!!
