Renewal?

I didn't want it to come to this but I am feeling something nice on the site like a man sentenced to hanging seeing a pretty bird before the rope falls.

I feel as if I was going to die today, I put one of my children on the blog. My stories are important to me, after I am gone an no one cares I will have some sort of legacy. I doubt I will have children or a wife or even close friends so at the very least my writings will connect the world to both the sorrow I show in my day to day life and the love I keep guarded like the throne of a king.

My mind is an abyss of worlds and people, they yearn to be free and they whisper to me gently as I touch my fingers to the keyboard. When I grab hold of these characters and their worlds I feel less like a monster, less like a man but more like I have a spark of the divine and a chance to try on his shoes as I create worlds and allow them to be seen from this vast space by other.

People may hate me, God's will shun me, Devil's will tempt me, the world will devour me but my characters will always whisper to me lovingly and trust me enough to guide their lives as I see fit.

I can ask for no greater joy.

I feel...... Happy.