Im moving ever forward into relationships.
Im traumatically not ready for them. However, Im easing up on the idea of relationships.
Im staying with it; Im allowing the girl to take notice and haven't given up.. Im not sure what Im doing or how God approves. I don't think God approves yet he knows I want to go through with it, so he will be with me anyway... That is what he has let me know. Im on my knees to God all day long.
And I will change my mind if he wants me to.
My anxiety levels attempt to explain the world around me. They are a faulty indicator of everything in the real world.
My world is about protection.. That is what Im interested in.
I am willing to let go and work with him.
As I heal up from trauma, I would like to start my life over again, and forget about the past that I came from, and those in it. Those horrible people from my past. I tried to help them, they spit in my face, much like the vineyard workers spit in the face of the king and his men when the king inquired of his vineyard. They took his son ransom and killed him.. They were an evil lot.
And I have been around an Evil lot. I am attempting to come back from trauma and let go of any and all memories of the past and those associated with it. They were monsters..
I will not be forced to hated those people as they wished I would. I forgive them, all of them, for they are evil and do not know what they do. And they are a deeply Evil, Evil lot. Nothing is beyond there murderous raping , lawless abandon.
I must get over my past. It is slow and Im looking forward to being free from it!
I will, I must always bring God to the for front of such things. That I be free.
Im traumatically not ready for them. However, Im easing up on the idea of relationships.
Im staying with it; Im allowing the girl to take notice and haven't given up.. Im not sure what Im doing or how God approves. I don't think God approves yet he knows I want to go through with it, so he will be with me anyway... That is what he has let me know. Im on my knees to God all day long.
And I will change my mind if he wants me to.
My anxiety levels attempt to explain the world around me. They are a faulty indicator of everything in the real world.
My world is about protection.. That is what Im interested in.
I am willing to let go and work with him.
As I heal up from trauma, I would like to start my life over again, and forget about the past that I came from, and those in it. Those horrible people from my past. I tried to help them, they spit in my face, much like the vineyard workers spit in the face of the king and his men when the king inquired of his vineyard. They took his son ransom and killed him.. They were an evil lot.
And I have been around an Evil lot. I am attempting to come back from trauma and let go of any and all memories of the past and those associated with it. They were monsters..
I will not be forced to hated those people as they wished I would. I forgive them, all of them, for they are evil and do not know what they do. And they are a deeply Evil, Evil lot. Nothing is beyond there murderous raping , lawless abandon.
I must get over my past. It is slow and Im looking forward to being free from it!
I will, I must always bring God to the for front of such things. That I be free.
