Rejection vs Not knowing

For 2 weeks I've been battling telling a man that I like him, sounds easy right, wrong. I've only had two men in my life and have one child from each. I usally don't try to talk to men because they either are'nt interested or just want to walk all over me, and since I want allow the walk all over me men in my life, I have none at all. This guy is wonderful I have only known him for 3 weeks but started seeing qualities in him that I find extreamly attractive. He's smart, sweet, a gentleman and very easy to talk to. When I realized I like him I tried to ignore it, but I started thinking how tired I am of hiding in my protective bubble where nothing bad can get in, because nothing good can get in either. So, today I did it I ask him if he liked me, he said not in that way. He was a gentleman about it, he said he was flatterd and that we could be friends. I was ok the rest of the day until it was time to go home. Thats when I started thinking about How mabe it's God's plan for me to be lonely, some may say surely God would'nt want you to be lonely. Well God wants me to love, worship and praise him and I do. I just need to stop looking for happiness as I see it and just get stronger in Christ. I wish I did'nt feel so sad, but it's rough being my age and never ever having experienced the love of a man. Most decent men are nice, respectful and polite to me but never see me as a women that could be more than a freind or they just see me as like a mother figure. I use to think it was the way I look, but there are other women who look like me who have relationships, boyfreinds, husbands I just don't get it. I have resolved that God has some plan for my lonliness. Before I followed Jesus I felt completely alone it made me want to just go to sleep and not wake up, now I know I'm not alone. There is a big difference in being lonley and being completly alone. I can get through my boughts of sadness (which happen alot) because I have Jesus in my life and I thank God for him ever day. I am glad I asked him because although rejection hurts, you can get over it, not knowing last forever.