That's as good a title as any. I keep getting plagued by strange doubts and anxieties these days that I'm trying to get out of my system, even a bit. I actually obsess about my age (26) a strange amount no matter how many times I make peace with it. I haven't had my own place to live yet that's not associated with school, my job history is scant, I still feel very childish sometimes, and the very fact that I'm still in school. I once had someone hear my age and basically ask what I was doing still in college. I know they're in the wrong but it still dug deep. In many ways, society says that I should be much farther along by now. I know that everyone develops at their own pace (God's pace) but that peer pressure does sink in.
This might be a very silly thing to post but it seems like the Devil will try anything to make me depressed (or at least I'm prone to letting anything get to me). I know I can't change the past and the past made me who I am now. I know there is nothing I can do but keep moving forward and trying to improve anything I'm unsatisfied with but I still sometimes just get rather anxious and scared. Maybe it's also because graduation is near and the real world (and I'm going to seem very childish here) seems so scary.
I just hate how prone to anxiety I am. I actually tried anti-depressants and similar medicines once but I can't really afford them. Just hoping to get it out of my system and be able to think and pray more clearly. Feel free to comment and/or ask me about anything here (or just about anything in general).
This might be a very silly thing to post but it seems like the Devil will try anything to make me depressed (or at least I'm prone to letting anything get to me). I know I can't change the past and the past made me who I am now. I know there is nothing I can do but keep moving forward and trying to improve anything I'm unsatisfied with but I still sometimes just get rather anxious and scared. Maybe it's also because graduation is near and the real world (and I'm going to seem very childish here) seems so scary.
I just hate how prone to anxiety I am. I actually tried anti-depressants and similar medicines once but I can't really afford them. Just hoping to get it out of my system and be able to think and pray more clearly. Feel free to comment and/or ask me about anything here (or just about anything in general).
