Prayer

Dear Lord,

I need you. I have been chasing all the things that I thought that I had let go of. It seems that the harder I work the further away from You I get. I tried to make it here and i tried t be friendly. I tried to make myself the person that I thought you wanted me to be But now I am lost in all the bitterness that is surrounding me. It seems that I can't seem to let go. I know that I am to forgive but how can I forget? It seems that in all that I do the same problems are arising.

I am scared Lord of making decision. I am scared that it will stop me, prevent me from doing your will. Lord, I need to make some tough decisions. I thought I could see you. I thought I saw the path and now it is gone. Father hold me tight. I am not sure where I am supposed to go from here. I am not sure if I am ready to let go of it all. Maybe it is me. Maybe I am addicted to the drama. Maybe it is me that needs to be needed. Maybe it is me that wants to be the centre of it all.

Father, I have lived this life and it is tempting to keep it here. To keep going and not continue on to the peak. I am not sure if I want to continue to climb all the way to You. Lord, I am scared of the consequences. Fear is my friend.

But Father in You I have no fear. I have nothing to fear. Can I really stand alone in you? Am I willing to make the final sacrifice?

Father, lead me, guide me, order me steps and make my path clear. I pray Lord that you will shine your light onto me.