Had an alright weekend. I hung out with friends I haven't been with in a long time. I stayed with Brad and skipped chruch. We left mid afternoon to set up the tent/covering and grill. It was awesome to see Texas Chainsaw Massacre on a huge screen.
My mind is shot for about a week and I have been sick for a couple of days, just hope it doesn't affect my asthma again. Oh well, whateva, right?
I'm tired of hurting and I pray that I stop being tested for a while, I can't get my head up above water these days without relying on talking with friends. I want to do it myself, but I know I can't, it can only be done through Christ. So in everything I do, or ever want has to be OK'ed by Him. It's not about me anymore and I wish that it never was. I have hurt myself far more than anyone else ever wanted, just from trusting in myself and going for what I wanted. I am learning a lesson, one that can only be learned from my stupid, intolerable failures! I know that I am nothing without God, but now I feel it to no end
My mind is shot for about a week and I have been sick for a couple of days, just hope it doesn't affect my asthma again. Oh well, whateva, right?
I'm tired of hurting and I pray that I stop being tested for a while, I can't get my head up above water these days without relying on talking with friends. I want to do it myself, but I know I can't, it can only be done through Christ. So in everything I do, or ever want has to be OK'ed by Him. It's not about me anymore and I wish that it never was. I have hurt myself far more than anyone else ever wanted, just from trusting in myself and going for what I wanted. I am learning a lesson, one that can only be learned from my stupid, intolerable failures! I know that I am nothing without God, but now I feel it to no end
