I need to keep working with God! Im in the middle of everything!
Im trying to work through my feelings, things I had in 4 grade through 8th grade!
That is a good place to start, and really honest. I have a whole hidden self that was split open and apart from me! and then ruined.
Im attempting to open that person up again with all the memories that are now gone!
Its so sad, it hurts so much! Its all so confusing...
I have allot of PTSD problems, and when I relive something, I relive something! Ive been split off from self! Im attempting to bring things back together with Gods help,
I have to go back and relive things, knowing I will never return to those wonderful places. And the shadows of those I loved are gone!
The same people, later, will attempt to destroy me! And I don't know why! Im so sad over this, and I never had a safe place to be sad over anything, and I had not one to share this sadness with, as the primary people I would have shared this with, are the people that betrayed me, and it is them that I am grieving.
I hope to learn to grieve these things and move on! its all so terrible.
If God was not with me I would never last in this place.
They had no conscious!
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Im so in the middle!
Im in the middle with people! or the beginning with people!
Im at allot of 12 step groups, and psych groups and church.. .and other stuff. but very few personal relationships, However, things are slowly picking up! well, not yet, but they are in ways..
Things are much improved from before!
Im doing better! Im looking to start the first wave of interaction with others in a way that indicates intimacy!
I dont know what Im doing!
Im trying to work through my feelings, things I had in 4 grade through 8th grade!
That is a good place to start, and really honest. I have a whole hidden self that was split open and apart from me! and then ruined.
Im attempting to open that person up again with all the memories that are now gone!
Its so sad, it hurts so much! Its all so confusing...
I have allot of PTSD problems, and when I relive something, I relive something! Ive been split off from self! Im attempting to bring things back together with Gods help,
I have to go back and relive things, knowing I will never return to those wonderful places. And the shadows of those I loved are gone!
The same people, later, will attempt to destroy me! And I don't know why! Im so sad over this, and I never had a safe place to be sad over anything, and I had not one to share this sadness with, as the primary people I would have shared this with, are the people that betrayed me, and it is them that I am grieving.
I hope to learn to grieve these things and move on! its all so terrible.
If God was not with me I would never last in this place.
They had no conscious!
---------
Im so in the middle!
Im in the middle with people! or the beginning with people!
Im at allot of 12 step groups, and psych groups and church.. .and other stuff. but very few personal relationships, However, things are slowly picking up! well, not yet, but they are in ways..
Things are much improved from before!
Im doing better! Im looking to start the first wave of interaction with others in a way that indicates intimacy!
I dont know what Im doing!
