I want to go back to questioning everything and numbing my emotions. My mom has told me several times before that she firmly believes that I experience things with stronger feeling than anyone else...
And I'll be honest, those stronger feelings and emotions, get me in trouble sometimes.
When I joined these forums, I was foolish, but I also believe I oozed "cool as a cucumber" to some, not all, people, and it made people respect me and gravitate toward me. And I'll be honest, I mostly ignored those people in favor of a select few who wanted me to "feel". When I lifted the floodgates on my emotions, I realized I had a lot... but that still doesn't mean that being "cool as a cucumber" isn't the way to treat people, per se. The fact is, I have gotten in so much trouble for listening to my emotions and trying to be "caring" toward people who needed it. I need to be more logical.
And I'll be honest, those stronger feelings and emotions, get me in trouble sometimes.
When I joined these forums, I was foolish, but I also believe I oozed "cool as a cucumber" to some, not all, people, and it made people respect me and gravitate toward me. And I'll be honest, I mostly ignored those people in favor of a select few who wanted me to "feel". When I lifted the floodgates on my emotions, I realized I had a lot... but that still doesn't mean that being "cool as a cucumber" isn't the way to treat people, per se. The fact is, I have gotten in so much trouble for listening to my emotions and trying to be "caring" toward people who needed it. I need to be more logical.
