Not Convinced

As much as a christian knows in their heart that god exists I know in my heart that god is a myth. Yes I am an atheist. I'm in the minority in America. My non belief puts me in a category that is shunned by mainstream America. It does not make me a bad person, nor does it mean that the moral guidelines i live my life by are any less than a person of faith. It just doesn't make any sense to me, religion that is. It's the faith. Faith and reason just don't go together for me. You have to abandon one to accept the other and I just don't have the ability to abandon reason. I don't understand how Christians claim the bible and god are all about love, but when you look at the bible it's full of atrocity. True the new testament isn't as brutal as the old, but it's still based on and references the old testament. When I hear that god is all loving i think about the story of Job. Christians condemn Satan yet in this story god is clearly the evil entity. In fact from my point of view god is worse than the devil. He slaughtered more people that's for sure, he's jealous (which implies that god is admitting the exsistance of other gods), and he's angry. Why would anyone love something so terrible and hideous? If you take offense to anything i'm saying DONT, It's just the way I see the Christian religion. What I also have trouble with is even if I could get over the whole faith thing, what god are you supposed to believe in? Zues, Apallo, Ra? None of them are any different that the christian god. Blah that's my rant, feel free to hate me now.